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`geraldine*
`huixian*
`virginia*
`erina*
'royston*
`benjamin*
`jasmine*
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`val jiejie*
`tiffany*
`melody*
`iris*
`rachel*
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'geraldine11*
'joel*
'sherry*
'terry*
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`sheryl*
`thiamkee*
`justin*
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`inez*
`xiangting*
`luther*
`genevis*

hmmm...quite long ago, i already suspected there was something going on, but u didnt admit it. i think till now, u wont be admitting it...to me only bah. i dunnoe...maybe u're not that kind of pple...or maybe u didnt want to hurt me? but...it makes u no difference from other guys.

liars. u ''promised'' you will wait for me. i'm sorry too...i did something which might hurt you but i dun think you know abt it..unless...anyway, i guess...the 1st love...was pehaps given to u...it took you so long to express it...and same for me, i had the feelings but...things didnt turn out the way we want to it to be. i was afraid. i thought it might be alittle too embarrassing. and thought we could hold on awhile more...but..who knows, now u're one happy man. i'm happy to know that u found your happiness...really. but of course deep inside, it hurts.

from the day i began to take a liking for you, i also dreamt abt the sweet ending we will have. hahha so this is just day-dreaming. hmmm i'm not angry or what. just hope we can remain that very gd frens we were before, like u confiding in me and me telling you all my problems..and those late smses..but of course feelings might have changed for you. maybe u cant wait any longer. or the girl is much better. i think i m selfish. very. i'm in the wrong. i should have tresured you. but...i'm scared. actually i m very happy when pple are making fun of us...but..hahaha now? haha no use la. stop this thinking michelle. i was quite ready le...but things must happened at this time. sigh. u wont know my feelings one...becoz i always kept it to myself. when i know u are dieting and working so hard...for me...i just felt so xing fu. i held such importance in yr heart. maybe my actions werent obvious la.

but i know...i will be mo-mo-de support you. u know...i have been so proud of you. u and yr skill. u promised to play well and melt my heart with yr solo. that concert day, we saw each other...but i was so shy laaa....i really wanted to go up to you, to pass you a flower and tell u that u played well and have melted me...not only my heart..but i didnt have the courage. when u stood on the podium, i was shouting out yr name, but i guessed u cant even hear that insignifant me. maybe..it was becoz i didnt dare to do anything on that night...and at the right time and fate, another came into my life. then...everything is history. no point raking up the past.

i wan you to know, i can clearly remembered the date 300504 and it was at 11.57pm. but i think it is pointless. dun think you rememebered.

`scribbled at-
Thursday, March 17, 2005