`weekiat*
`geraldine*
`huixian*
`virginia*
`erina*
'royston*
`benjamin*
`jasmine*
`jenny jie*
`val jiejie*
`tiffany*
`melody*
`iris*
`rachel*
'yuen leng*
'geraldine11*
'joel*
'sherry*
'terry*
`huikoon*
`tasneem*
`jocelyn*
`khinewa*
`sherman*
`sheryl*
`thiamkee*
`justin*
`bernard*
`kevin.caleb*
`tingzhang*
`inez*
`xiangting*
`luther*
`genevis*

now... i am having alot of thoughts in my mind. i dunnoe actually what i am feeling right now. confused.

hmmm, sorry this will be an irrelevant blog. and a short one.

today we had some intra-house captain ball competition. during the warming up session, i was quite blur and... ya i didnt see royston had thrown the ball towards me. so i STICK out my fingers. *arhhhhh!! bap! * ya, u guessed it right. my fourth finger was jammed. terribly.

this is my first time. all of a sudden, i felt this pain that made me ''paralysed'' to the groud, and i just held on to the hurt finger. it was so painful. in a instance. i really didint know what to do. the pain...

i just stood there. until geraldine came up to me and asked if i was all right. i explained and she was like " ya la... yr fingers kanna jammed..." she said in-a-matter-of-factly.

sighsigh. i dun really care that much if i cant play for the rest of the sports carnival events. my main concern was... PRELUDE CONCERT how? i dunnoe leh. now... my finger is still swollen. but i can type this entry because there are other 9 fingers. but... running notes leh? can i play? i already trying to catch up le... plus this injury... is this fated? sighsigh..

zuxian i pity u. yrs is much worse. i hope our 4th finger recover soon.... and we can play during concert. see pple... all the most u guys should come to support us!! please man.

i was quite shocked when geri told me that u werent going for tj concert. a simple yet questionable WHY popped into my head. as in... i thought u would come to support me.. maybe that is in the past... but i thought u should give it some thought... this time because of syf.. tj band. i dunnoe la. so weird. but i am of no position to ''wanting'' u to come. it is such a pity. initially i was quite happy... because we were going to play alot of songs, some of which are yr faves.

nvm la. fated once again.

anyway change topic. sigh. alot of thoughts and feelings kept flooding my mind. i really want to know how u feel. anyway, another side of michelle feel like confessing something to another person. i dunnoe laaaaa. shouldnt be thinking abt all these. i know....

hmmm talk abt eye for a guy today. kudos to jerry and wolfgang who has impressed dennis and frens. and they stood good chance. tough man. i personally feel that shan has this alluring thingy, which make u physically attracted to him. plus... when i first saw him on tv, he reminded me of kh. seriously.

i was thinking. at that time, was i only physically attracted to kh, yet mentally i was paying abit of attention to u. but... u didnt wait and.. ya the rest is history. nvm.

howard! u screwed up big time for this episod la. big time. u suck. just say whatever is from yr heart. u stand really good good chance. although u are short. ha wolfgang should be yr biggest threat. but i watched the announcement. howard made it up... he pu chang.. i think he confessed his klove for dennis and... did u see his arms putting round her waist.

howard. just do it. really... u rock la. u are cute and i like u. i like yr humor. i think u stand great chance to become finally 2. unless u dun make any more disasterous mistakes. just... confess... love only. it is normal for guys and girls to fall in love.

what am i talking abt?? anyway just to add.. shan is a ''sore'' loser. face it. u are too ''conservative'' in yr thinking. u dun be open abt yrself. u keep alot of things to yrself. u are qute a cheater. sometimes, when u realised u had said something wrongly, u denied it, hoping that it will go away. but no no. be truful.

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Thursday, May 26, 2005