Thursday, October 20, 2005
ya. long-awaited post abt graduation day ~ 18 october 2005.i think 18 is such a nice date...haha coincides with the fact that we are 18 years old... ok no link but i still wanna mention.hmmm.. i dun wish to go into details abt the farewell concert. i am too lazy and tired bah.... and i am supposed to be studying now??? i shall do it after As, so u guys just come and check it out la...i wanna mention something that i didnt say during the 30 sec speech. sorry pple if my speech was kinda lengthy and i look darn fat and ugly and my ugly face might put pple off... sorry but i have no idea WHY the camera is so bloody near la.... and i think low focus laa... haiz.....ok before i say anything. i must clarify.... it is not abt being sour grapes and i dun wish pple to start slam-ing on my blog. this is what i feel and i am free to write (of course i am free to write, as long it is not abt some sensitive issue like racism? i dun wish to end up in jail thankyou...) . it is u guys who wanna read it, so it is yr choice.i wanna say... i am REALLY glad that some moe computer didnt choose me to go vj and i didnt pass the appeal round. actually, i am still unclear abt the band appeal. why werent i informed? i found out myself can? it was frustrating... and to be ''kicked'' out like that. but i wanna say a sarcastic thankyou. if not for u pple.... i will most prob suffer in my class. sorry but right from the start i didnt like the class.. and some pple know.1104 and vj class. a drastic difference. i said this, not because of being sour grapes i swear. the countless times i cried during first 3 mths, were hell to me. i hate the way pple treat each other. i think.... maybe the sch culture matters. i am not suitable for that particular sch culture.ok those who wanna kill me now, stop reading....hmmm i am glad i listened to ma...to put (or perhaps try my luck) tj as 2nd choice. ma is always right. tj is THE school for me. the pple.. and culture... it is so me.. i can relate to my own life...haha. first incident which makes me think, tj is the ONE and i didnt regret coming.. will be... my class 1104 celebrating my birthday for me. ok, maybe some of u might think it is insignificant.. but i was so bloody touched can? i am just a 2nd intaker... i didnt know anyone of the class except vir and... they bought a fruit cake for me.. and sang a loud bdae song for me... i was moved to (almost) tears. then they welcomed me so warmly. ok.. my first 3 mths class... NONE of them sent a simple sms to me. ha. i just knew TWO BITCHY girls cant wait for me to leave the class. they bitch bitch abt me.. until i think ALL the things they said are untrue. i still believe those hurting stuff were false. whatever. u girls succeeded, and i pity yr BFs. whatever *flink hair and walk away*today.. really stirred all kinds of emotions in me. be it happy memories and moments spent with the class or stressful times during exam periods... i will DEFINITELY miss..those lunch breaks spent at opposite (as we called it) thinking of what good food we should eat and rattle abt the lessons we had before the break, and update each other on some juiciest news in tj...those times we combined the tables into long or circular way in our cafeteria and talk like noone business... and attracted countless attention (pls man.. we are one of the more prominent classes hahahahahaa)those mugging times we spent in library.... or ponning lectures just to ''study''... though stressful but it were the class pple, who kept encouraging me, allowed me to pull through and hang on...not forgetting PW period, everyone was quite worried and anxious abt the presentation day. i love my PW group la.. comprised of the ON pple... huixian peiqiang sherry zuxian.. the times we spent at each other house. i can remember the late nights me and hx endured... just to get everything done..... by hook or by crook.i wont forget tutorials times... during lecture hours ( sitting in that same usual area for the past 2 years... will bring back many memories...) and pe days and not getting assembly in the morning...so much stuffs to remember. my brain is weird. i can remember all these wonderful or sad moments spent with 1104 but.. hardly remember chemistry equation maths formulae and physics methods. it is true.. that when pple said, ten years down the road, u wont remember how many As u got, how well u did for tests but u will not forget yr classmates, the time u shared together as a class and those conversations u had... those kind of bonding.. which CANT be brought back by money.i am serious. i will miss everyone. i hope to keep in touch till forever??? u guys must invite me to yr weddings k. i just attended my aunt wedding. and there is this 2 tables... for her sec sch frens and her hcjc frens... and their relationship is still as strong... my my, i hope to keep in touch with my wonderful jie-meis la... they are the ones who see me thru this tough 2 years.this 2 years, i cant stand it. it had such a toil on my health and my confidence and self-esteem blah blah. i think all because of studies. it was a tough tough 2 years. but i know, i matured and grew to be a much stronger person, a girl with more self confidence and dare to speak up in class. thankyou 1104-ers... if not for u guys, i think i will remain like hermit.. i dun dare to talk aloud in lessons.haiz. 2 years have just passed like that. 18 more days to alevels. hope to do well to get into uni and ... finalised mine and my parents' dream bah.hmmm.. in short. i am really happy to be in tjc.. and more imptly to be in 1104. as what geri said, the school name doesnt matter, it is the classmates that is more impt. i am not saying the other sch is not good. it is a good sch which year by year produce top students.... but it is just my class.. and perhaps my cca pple.thankyou 1104 for giving me such an unforgetable memories in tjc. this memory is good enough to last me the whole life time. i am really glad to be able to walk this 2 years journey with each and everyone of you. so here, i wish u pple ALL THE BEST for alevels... remember this is the LAST LAP... just do it... u guys can make it.....always believe in yourself, unleash yr hidden potential, bring out the best of yourself.... you can conquer the highest mountain....
`scribbled at-
Thursday, October 20, 2005