Thursday, November 03, 2005
feverish feeling.that's what i am feeling right NOW. haiz.. feel so warm all over la. the sucky feeling of going-to-be-ill-soon. arrh fever!! can u wait till A's is over before u become full blown???crap la. initially, i wanted to stay up alittle later so to do more work, but i think after blogging i better go sleep liao.. my body is feeling warmer.. yet inside me is cold.. u know, blowing hot and cold?? oh yea. today went to sch to study with zuxian. but our sole purpose was to zuxian: return her due lib books, and for my case, i have to pay library fines. i dun think it is over 5 bucks la... since names of pple who owed the lib more that that amt were put up at the doors of the library. i read, and they said those didnt pay lib fines wont get their testimonials blah blah. haha. i think i owed 4 bucks bah.. since low even sms me to pay library fines.but what luck. actually wanted to pay the fine in the morning.. but dragged till 6pm. then when zuxian and i made our way to the lib, it was CLOSED! damn la. i have to pay the fines before nov 4??? this is terrible man... i dun wish to go back to sch... any kind soul out there?? if u all going back tj, pls let me know.. and maybe help me pay the lib first??? i pay u back on 8nov..today mugging wasnt that efficient, but at least managed to sit down to do some work. compare this to the work i do at home, it is just alittle more. hmmm, met yuenleng in sch, and she was going to ask low some maths qns, so i tagged along. i didnt prepare anything la, so just asked him some nov 04 qns... those i didnt know how to do la.. he was quite ''mad'' at me.. because i asked him a stupid PNC qns. maybe he thinks i asked because i didnt like try to do it or something.. but i realllyyy dun know how to solve those kind of qns. haiz..saw jasmine as well.. and zx me jas studied till 6pm? haha. when we felt bored.. we chatted alittle. haha. abt jobs after As. jasmine might have lobang.. as a promoter.. but she said it was a tough job and the pay isnt that good... 5 bucks. long hours of standing + boring + low pay... hmmm i dun mind any job la.. since i need to find one soon to fund my lessons...haha now my current conversation topic with jasmine is abt lin yun feng. haha my yet-to-be cello teacher. haha. he was from dhs, then to tj. haha he was in sc, string ensemble and CO. haha seemed to be quite a ON and talented guy huh? but i was rather turned off by his character, as described by jasmine.. he is like mr d.c... those kind of heck care but jovial person...yesterday... my sis shouted in her room... saying the 'tong feng' channel was featuring yan zing shu plus MING DAO. wah lao.. i simply just dashed into her room and sat put for an hour infront of the tv set. haha. yar i agree with hx. she said he doesnt look that charming unlike in frog prince show. haha.. that talk show by tao jing ying plus ms hou ( jay's gf ).. his hair was... hmmm he has natural curls la.. his dressing is no more like 007, so cool cut... instead, it was casual.. but hey! nice leh... guys with long sleeves shirt really look better...the whole show was supposed to let viewers know more abt yan xing shu plus ming dao. hmmm realised ming dao is a rather straight forward person. there is one thing abt him that i could relate to myself. i think.. it is quite me also...he said his character is rather st forward and he speaks of his mind. for example... when he sees lady friend who is rather pretty that day, he will directly tell her, " HEY! i think u look gorgeous today." and he said that's it. full stop. he DOESNT mean anything else.. and everything just stops at " she is very pretty today. period" but pple often mistaken as, he wanna ''flirt'' with the girls and get flesh with that lady.. or even spectulate if he likes her. haha. he said in the show he seriously dun mean that.. and often mislead others. and also.. he admitted that he can be abit touchy-feely with pple he is close to.. because he doesnt see the ''harm'' for example.. when he go walk walk on the streets, even if a guy, he might just hold lightly on the forearm of the person next to him.. and make small talk.. he thinks it is just a friendly jesture.. like meaning i am comfortable with you sort of things... but his 183 club mate kindly told him dun do that... because he doesnt wan pple to think they are GAY! haha...oh yes. ming dao quickly clear the doubts and told the hosts that he likes woman. and he dun see the harm even to like brushing the back of another guy's back.. like "hey.. i go off awhile.. be right back" kind of thing.ok. what i wanna relate to myself.. is that.. hmmm.. how should i phase it. i am not annoyed or what la.. but i feel that some of my frens think i am crazy over hot bods. and, this kinda scare or make some pple be turned off... like the way they describe how i would treat hot bods and ask their frens to be careful?? i dunnoe... but i think maybe this make pple to look at me at a different way, and seriously i dun like it.hmmm.. what is the same as ming dao? hmmm.. maybe when i see someone looking good/shuai/cute/whatever.. i will just comment. " oei.. u see that guy over there... i think he's hot..." yar, i meant it.. but it is just that. everything stops there. no nothing. just stop at this line. hmmm.. i dun even ''imagine'' pouring water on them la.ya. last time.. took a flute section photo and realised hakliang looked good in that picture.. so i sent him the photo and told him he looked quite good.. and i think he was kinda freak out. haha. it is a compliment man! and i totally have no fantasies whatsoever.yar. simple. just like that. ha. got this out.. i've been wanting to express this.. not angry or what la.. but....oh wells.., tmr is thurs.. and what have i finished? am i really going to die??
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Thursday, November 03, 2005