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work.. has taken a toil on my body.. not realli on my health.. i am quite perfectly fine. it's the body. i'm suffering from... backaches.. neck aches... from too much sitting down for HOURS on a cold and foldable kind of chair ok... sigh it seemed that there aint enough those cushy arm chairs for everyone. my another partner.. who is a guy.. he gave up his chair and now he is sitting on a stool??? this is what i call.. gentlemanly actions..

anyway. did i mention i was so so so lonely on thurs? i experienced one of the worst feelings that day. i felt so pathetic. in a rather big office.... i cant find anyone to have lunch with me. maybe i didnt even went to look for someone to have lunch with la. how can? i am new la.. noone talks to me.. because my job scope doesnt require me to even talk... let alone mix with the colleques..

ya. so i went to ps food court. ALONE. i almost sweared that i wont eat alone anymore. the eyes that were on me.. when i was trying to find a seat.. or perhaps bunk in with some other pple...

ok i am not a loner k. i can be sociable if i want to.. as well as be an introvert..

anyway i tell you the feeling sucks la. so today.. i promised myself the same thing wont happen again. i didnt have the courage to ask my partner val whether i can join my that team of ladies for lunch... but just when i plucked up enough courage.. i turned around and realised they went out already. loser michelle!!!

i tried asking my sis to join me.. but she aint free. ok win liao.. the office is almost empty.. except for some pple.. who need to guard the phone lines. then the pple beside my work space.. which is from another team... they are going for lunch. 2 malays and 1 chinese. nono.. dun get me wrong. i am not going to say anything like racism or whatsoever. i dun wan to go jail ok..

i said that.... because of a reason.. u know later..

then i thought... hmm why not make new frens... anyway it seemed that my team doesnt realli care abt my existance. as in... they know i m here and stuffs.. but they wont specially call me along for their activities. hello?? i am part of the team also leh.. and i will be with u guys for 6 mths... can u guys include me? ok.. maybe u all think why not i take the initiative to join them.. but it is not as easy as u think. if a newcomer is like so ON and wanna join in without any ''invitation' i wont like it too.. if i am the ''senior'' there..

so anyway. i asked " eh.. are u pple going for lunch? do u mind i join u all...??" i was damn scared... as in.. i dunnoe what kind of answers will i get.. maybe things like " eh.. who are you??"

but.. the reply was... " oh SURE! but.. do u mind having malay food ?" *this is the reason*

of course i dont mind la. if u pple notice.. i am like the few who eat the malay food in sch canteen. i like it man.. especially nasi bryani. so i went out with them..

we went to this ''ulu to me" run down shopping centre.. and at the top level there is this stall selling malay food. gosh.. there are like 15 varieties to choose from? and the most imptly.. is cheap. u know.. the 3 of the ladies.. they each ordered like 5 dishes???? kaoz. i onli ordered 3... and is 2.50.

is cheap la... quite big portion. i was full.. so u pple know it is quite worth it. not like in PS food court.. KAOZ> i wont go that stall to eat liao. the mixed veg stall... 3 dishes is 4.20. idiot.

so.. yep. in all i had a great lunch. and it was the first time i was listening and experiencing OFFICE BITCHING!!! woah woah....

ok. names were mentioned. but i wont know who they are. i am new.. to everything. then they were saying abt the boss of call centre ( the office i am working at ). there are many small bosses.. and one big boss la. and i didnt know who is the big boss. so i asked a qns " eh.. may i know who is the big boss of call centre?"

and u know what. it is the chinese lady i was having lunch with... *GOSH* i nearly died man.. then 3 of them ended up laughing.

anyway. i like 3 of them. they are humorous and they included me in their conversations. even when i dunnoe a clue of what they talking abt.. they explained to me.. and when they speak to me... they look at me.. this is basic respect la.

and ya. tonight my office has a party.. at this club near centre point. i was invited by the big boss... she was like .. hey go laa... go have fun.. u didnt know arh.. nvm la.. come along man.. i was so tempted to go.. i didnt step into a club before.. and maybe go with those office workers.. i can see how these adults havoc it out man...

then my "head" raymond came along.. he also came to eat the malay food. then the big lady boss was like "hey raymond.. are you going to the party tonight.. hey.. bring michelle along la.." then raymond was like.. oh ok sure... then the lady boss said u didnt ask michelle is it... then i replied ya.. he didnt ask me.. so sad hor.. haha in a joking manner.. then the lady big boss said.. " eh raymond.. must ask michelle along laaa... i can see.. she is someone who will stay in the office for long man..."

woah. is that a praise or something??

so anyway.. raymond is kinda shy la. and sort of promised to bring me there.. haha not bad huh? maybe because i am young la... and the real night party starts at 10pm.. hello???? of course my ''head'' must bring me there la.. or else i go myself meh

but i din go in the end. anyway.. raymond is a nice guy.. with realli good complexion man. oh he is the uglier version of howard lo in eye for a guy2. i m serious

haha nope nope i am not having a crush on my ''head' so weird!!

anyway i like my big lady boss. she calls me by name instead of whey. and i think she is treating me like a daughter la. she like this auntie taking care of the younger girls.. like me...

yep. so today.. i made 3 new frens.. and knew my ''head'' better... he is abit shy. bleah! but well liked by the office girls sia... not bad...

oh today my partner val told me.. to slow down on my waiver.. or else i wont have any more work to do... hmmm maybe i am too fast? i dun think so. i wanna finish it quick.. i have a reason.. so that my leave will be approved and i wont be laden with piles of work when i returned from hk...

`scribbled at-
Saturday, December 03, 2005