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haha, came to my blog to see whether i will post any juicy news about a levels results? haha then u are in luck. DUH!!! this whoel post shall be my feelings about this whole A levels thingy….

Hmmm… I shall keep some of u guys in suspense of what I have gotten for the time being…

Not fantastic.

Ok, I didn’t go to work, took a FULL DAY leave, actually wanted to bury myself in work. But part of me was feeling very exhausted and just wanna sleep longer…

So in the end, I went out.... because I had the craving for icecream. Initially wanted to meet up with my class, but I didn’t wan to go to sch early because of various reasons like : I dun wan to hear what loke-yeo got to say, I dun wan to see the stats etc…

I went into the hall late. But just in the nick of time to see chongyang and weiliang name on the screen. The top few. 7 dist arh? DAMN PRO can? Huixian me Vivian vir just screamed, though loudest got to be huixian. DUH!!!!! Who is not excited and happy???

Haiz. I wanna be the last few to get my results, then some of my best gfs already knew what they go , because their names were flashed on the screen. YEAH. 4 A and 3 A… I am so happy for u all leh!!

Then, I knew my heart couldn’t take it liao. I need to know my results before I die on the spot… I didn’t have high expectations to start off with.. I am so lousy, couldn’t control my emotions well. I cried before I took my results, because I was afraid. I am afraid I will let everyone down…. Haha u guys understand ma?

Anyway, i didn’t care less, I just wanna know what I got… I was expecting for the worst…. Then… mr low, my CT, he scared-ed the shits out of me can. U know my heart came out literally…

Low: “ michelle arh, I really dunno is it because of me, because of my teaching or what….”

ME : “HUH?” (frozen ON THE SPOT)

Low: “ u have tuition right??” (gave a look, which sensitive michelle thought it was a displeasing one…)

ME: “hmp…” (nodding my head, and lowered my head, and I was really going to die….)

Low: “ hmmm… anyway congratulations! You got A for yr maths!!!!!”

AARRH. I screamed. Cried on the spot. And got hold of my result slip. And the first thing I saw was a C5… yes was general paper. Yar. So lousy right? Yes I know…. My gp is so horrible….. laugh bah.

Yar. So it was A-math, B-chemistry, C-physics, C5.

I know… to some of u all, it is hideous. “wah somemore dare to put on blog….”

All these grades, I put in so much effort into it…. My results in jc weren’t even ok.. when there is any chance to see the principal for a cup of tea, I will surely be there. Yar serious mah…. I only didn’t see her after prelims. Actually I am thinking if there is anyone who has given up hopes on me….

Oh Vivian helped me count how much I have improved from prelims. A jump of FOURTEEN grades in total. Yar thanks babe. I think is most prob I was DARN LOUSY…. And prelim grades were the best I gotten in the whole of tj exams??

So, that’s why I am contented with what I have achieved… very…

Please la. I never gotten an A nor B nor C before larh….

Oh. When I gotten my results, I shed alittle bit of tears. I started crying very hard because I called home. Called my sis. And realized my whole family were upset, disappointed with me…

I was very affected. Because…. I live for them… everything I do, was for them.

Now, it is different.. I m living for myself NOW, and i will put in my best in whatever I do, plus I wont give up. I will make sure I turn, if not, it will forever be a dead end.

In any case, the first person (exclusive family laaaaaa) I wanna thank is MR LOW.

Yes. Is low. I am really grateful to what he did for me in the past 2 years. So much he has helped me… and never gave up on a nearly-hopeless student…like me. Come on man, I went to see the principal like when there’s a chance to do so??? It was really bad…

I went to shake hands with him and said “ thankyou mr low for everything… really thankyou…”

Then he said “ no no… u have done well… congratulations arh…”

ME : “ really really xie xie ni loh…”

Low : “ ni ke yi zhuo dao de, with your this never-say-die attitude, michelle, you will go far….”

ME: *TEARS swelling up…* blinks eyes * tears flowed like nobody’s business, dun even care about her image even she was beside the person…”

I was super touched by his words. U know how afraid i am of low, and I dun really dare to approach him nor talk to him, and finally, at the last day of my TJC life, I know what he thinks of me….

The next few pple I wanna thanks must be all my girlfriends loh… who else other than them, supporting me throughout these few years…

Geri,melody,huixian,Virginia,Vivian,zuxian,yuenleng,sherry,Geraldine,meici,huimin,yafen,Sammie,weejuay,weekiat,zhenghong……

Oh man,never ending list of pple I wanna say a word of thankyou… supporting me when I was down and low, helped me when qns that I find it so difficult to understand, studied with me, especially when I was confined in the library, and going to airport to study till brain juice all suck up by notes….

Thanks to melody for her vj notes… they were useful…

Haiz. Too many pple to thank, last but not least, my beloved OL. They were with me till the last min when I gotten my results… started to cheer me on, gave me their moral support, called and sms-ed even though they have to work…. Haiyo. And them, listening to my rattling abt how scared I was to be, if I m going to disappoint myself….

Anyway…. after chatting with huixian on thurs, I found out I didn’t do that badly as I tot I was…. I was already contented with everything I got, and it was within my expectations. But the pple around me seemed to be getting their AAAA, AAA, AAB, I felt so lousy, with mum and sis adding more oil to fire…

However, I should also think about those who failed to perform….

I should be happy…

I already am, but I am kinda worried I might not get my first choice….

How how??

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Saturday, March 04, 2006