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oh hi.

lame -_______________- '''

my feeling currently is anxious uneasiness.

why do i feel this way? perhaps about uni applications. life is like that. at first, worry about a levels, followed by results, continued with uni applications, the courses and stuffs..

so much things to worry, so being a carefree baby is the best??

i have decided ONLY two courses i am really interested in, but i cant just put down one choice for each uni. it is IMPOSSIBLE. i didnt get 4As and A1. i cant... i m seriously putting my life (yar, life) in utmost danger...

however, what other possible choices i have? how abt ntu's tourism and management? sound good huh? but it is related to business. anytime got to do with business, i am totally not interested...

so how about engineering? yar. michelle is left with no other choice. only armed with shabby results and subjects like maths phy and chem, she is left with engineering...

HUH? working in labs most of the time? no way. yaryar, i know, sometimes even banks or other companies hire engineers, but, first of all, i have to study and do research in labs. maybe for 4 years, i wont have any interaction or what. oh sorry. i cant...

engineering... i might sleep in lectures again. no way, i told myself... nono.... i wont... i will study hard in uni. yar actions speak louder than words right. i will do it.

hmmm... but i think i am kinda left with little choice. maybe for 2nd 3rd few choices, i will put engineering.. oh god, bless me, let me get into tcm or nursing...

my passion ...

do they look at passion? sadly, no. results still stands out...

went to ntu and nus openhouse. i am kinda convinced.... i might just end up in ntu. seriously, nus dun have the courses i wanna take, except for nursing. but nus is such a prestigious name. and my dream sch.

i dunnoe la... but i still feel nus has more life, more vibrant. but sch abit old. but i still like it... and plus points : nearer my house, and someone is going there.

tcm is so tempting. i hope i can get in with my results. i really wanna do that course too. i just wan to work in medical areas. i cant see myself slogging my guts out in banks, offices or in labs.... not being a teacher. no way!

i m keen to be someone... who will directly make a difference to pple lives, making the sick feel better, working in healthcare sector. that is the real me. i really derive real happiness by doing these kind of work.

not all will understand. i wan work which involves interaction, emtionally rewarding kind of job. not monetary satisfying. not taking triple sci in jc is my biggest regret....

anyway, i had a great night. i talked to him. woohoo!!!!!!!!!

online lar =(

it's good enough.

i wanna blog more abt openhouse, but i am really exhausted. sorry vivi, this is a damn lousy post.

today went to nus openhouse again. nothing rewarding, except i made a new friend. haha. my fren's army fren... who thinks i am not bad.

haha cool huh? from rj leh... dun play play..

he seemed nice.. and friendly...

`scribbled at-
Sunday, March 12, 2006