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" i find that u always ask help from people but seldom help people..."

someone said this to me.

these piercing words, just penetrated through heart, mind & soul. u dunno how i felt at that instance.

i wanna clarify, what help did i ask from u, and the rest? the only help i can think of is just CZ programming. that one i consider that as realling asking for HELP.

how about
"hey, can i ask clarify with you something in the lecture notes for calculus?"
"just now the linear algebra lecture, he said this and this right? why sia... wah lao, damn difficult can...haiya, nvm, shall go home read..."
"what did she say? i missed the last 3 words.."

i really dun consider this as asking for help loh. nvm, say i selfish, say i mean. it really dun matter to me now then.

and i seldom help pple. i wanna LAUGH man.

in that case, help is not lending the whole lecture notes for the person to bring home to copy (that person pon-ed lect like several times)

too bad that i "seldom help" pple lar.

u guys dun ask me qns abt tutorials, nor ask me anything concerning the lecture. only know how to ask the whole lecture notes to bring home and copy. why should i lend you to bring home? some are worse. they go for lecture. sit beside you, SLEEP all the way, at the end of the lecture, ask to borrow the notes. crap lar! unless you are ill and cant come for lecture, i will lend it to you. but if u sleep or talk during lect... haha. tutorial also the same. ask to bring home the whole tutorial...

maybe this is what u see of me bah. u dunno what is going on at home also. someone asked me HELP for the essay, i practically did the research and helped to write the essay. so i supposed this is not HELP, right?

anyway, i am not great. not even good to start off with. but....

dun comment when u dun even know me.

i barely know u either.

hard to get those words out of my head. not only is my first time hearing such words.... but it is very hurting.. haiz, i really detest uni life... i miss tjc lar. i miss going for lectures with vir, hx, vivi, yuen, zx, geri larr.....

we must go out soon k? but it could be after exams liao.

`scribbled at-
Thursday, October 19, 2006