`weekiat*
`geraldine*
`huixian*
`virginia*
`erina*
'royston*
`benjamin*
`jasmine*
`jenny jie*
`val jiejie*
`tiffany*
`melody*
`iris*
`rachel*
'yuen leng*
'geraldine11*
'joel*
'sherry*
'terry*
`huikoon*
`tasneem*
`jocelyn*
`khinewa*
`sherman*
`sheryl*
`thiamkee*
`justin*
`bernard*
`kevin.caleb*
`tingzhang*
`inez*
`xiangting*
`luther*
`genevis*

sometimes, i am so envious or maybe jealous of some pple. i wondered if they realised they are a bunch of lucky pple. many a times, i couldnt but start questioning whether life has been fair for everyone. some pple are blessed with everything so beatuitful in this world, they own wisdom, beauty, love blahblah. life seemed pretty prefect.. so good. yar yes the sour grapes will be sulking at home, grumbling and comparing why theirs aint that good. perhaps it is just me and my narrow minded thinking.

i dun have anything to start off with. and really pray that family problems will be solved quickly. but no. they just kept adding up.

i want to be free. [that's impossible...] i dont want to be controlled. i feel so suffocated.

noone to save me. i had to save myself. easier said than done. nvm, it is hard to explain the problems anyway. just wamt to vent some of my frustrations. very difficult for others to understand the pathetic plight i am in. i feel so miserable.

the day when someone saves me from pits of hell, is the day when i regain my freedom, maybe the day my new life starts.

one must be forward looking and move on from the past. me, i want to go back to the past. i have no courage to look towards the future. because i dun think i have any future to look forward to.

be happy and optimistic??? very sad, from 2004 i think i have nv been optimistic.... come to me if u are pessimistic kind.. join my league and let's mull over all sad things.

ok. this is depressing. i know there is no end to comparisons. but why... can some happy things or events befall on michelle? is this fate. it is so hard to accept.



`scribbled at-
Monday, December 11, 2006