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`rachel*
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'geraldine11*
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'sherry*
'terry*
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`inez*
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`genevis*

yo, it's me again. Haha! i've been blogging much more these days right? haha because my kid and silly goat are in some far away land(S) and i need someone to chitchat with. That's why i have to blog!

I have no idea how did that topic pop out, but suddenly i told my mum that once the heartbeat stopped, that's the end. You will never know what is happening anymore. You will just be a legacy, a history. Everything will just end. Just think about it, once you *** (CHOYCHOY!), you will never know what is going on even for the next second. You want to know what is going to happen next time but you cant. All the wonderful memories you had and want to be remember will be gone. Not because you became senile, it is because you have stopped thinking, you stopped breathing. I ALWAYS cant describe this feeling, but ya.. do you guys know what im saying?

Then my mum told me to live life to the fullest, which is exactly the name for my blog. I didnt know why, but i asked my mum if she has had any regrets. She said yes. Though I know everyone would have some regrets in life, I was taken aback by her words. She added on by saying that she will try her best to do the "things", so next time no more regrets. I dont know what she meant by the "things", but mum, im sure u have already done yr best.

so, the words "live life to the fullest" and after watching sat night movie: Armageddon, i was given a "reality" check. It spur me on. I really need to go catch and realise my dream. As what huixian put on her nick "fight for what you want", i have to know what i want, my dream and my goal in life. haha! why do i sound like that these days? Am i really growing OLD?

yeah i'm 21 already, i'm an adult, i have to start making plans for myself, how am i going to walk my life? I need to be in control. I need to live it well. Next year I'm going to start work, I'm on my own. No more daddy/mummy's girl, welcome to the harsh world.

Sorry for the cheong hei post. I'm just doing self reflection.. which i always do. I guess I'm gonna make a decision soon. But i know it might be a terrible one.

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Sunday, November 02, 2008