`weekiat*
`geraldine*
`huixian*
`virginia*
`erina*
'royston*
`benjamin*
`jasmine*
`jenny jie*
`val jiejie*
`tiffany*
`melody*
`iris*
`rachel*
'yuen leng*
'geraldine11*
'joel*
'sherry*
'terry*
`huikoon*
`tasneem*
`jocelyn*
`khinewa*
`sherman*
`sheryl*
`thiamkee*
`justin*
`bernard*
`kevin.caleb*
`tingzhang*
`inez*
`xiangting*
`luther*
`genevis*

It has been 4 days ever since I sent in my application but I have yet to receive a call from the HR dept. Of course I feel scared. It has been quite some time since I really wanted something. The last time was the summer exchange program which I wanted to go.

As the chinese saying goes, "xi wang yue gao, shi wang yue da". So true aint it?

I know it is not going to be easy. I have never said it is easy. I am so aware of my own limitations, weak points and abilities. The more information I learnt about it, the more worried and fearful i get. Then why am I still continuing? Why dont I just go apply some others? It makes no sense!

But I really want to do it, for now. I may not know everything about it, the perks and the downs are still blurred. I am still going to go ahead. I dont wish to regret for not even trying. I may seemed to be alittle ambitious. A minimum A levels is able to get me to go down for the test. But why isnt there a single call? I cant help but to feel paranoid. I dont wish to apply to any job. I made a mistake when applying for a university course and I seriously dont wish that to happen to my future. If you have undergone what I went through this 3 years, you will understand. It totally suck to study something you have no interest in.

Pray for me ya? I seriously hope everything will turn out fine eventually :)

`scribbled at-
Saturday, May 23, 2009