LiVe LiFe tO tHe fUlLeSt

p.s.我爱你

2010-04-26T23:41:00.002+08:00

super love this song. she has such a nice voice! but not very "hong" leh :(

p.s.我爱你黄丽玲

我想要成為你的眼
把最美的風景
收進你的心中

我想要成為你的手
好讓我從現在到以后
占有你溫柔一刻不放過
恨不得把明天沒收
讓你永遠不會變動
專注的愛著我

我愛你沒有保留
我愛你就到最后
有些人值得等候
有些悲傷值得忍受

我愛你不是沖動
生命盡頭反正一場空
只要你記得我們那么愛過

我要替你收集笑容
怕未來快樂變得貴重
要是少了我你有多寂寞
恨不得把明天沒收
讓你永遠不會變動
專注的愛著我

我愛你沒有保留
我愛你就到最后
有些人值得等候
有些悲傷值得忍受

我愛你不是沖動
生命盡頭反正一場空
只要你記得我們那么愛過

太陽不會放棄天空
哪怕你不再屬於我
我會在不同的窗口給你擁抱

我愛你沒有保留
我愛你就到最后
有些人值得等候
有些悲傷值得忍受

我愛你不是沖動
生命盡頭反正一場空
只要你記得我們那么愛過
我忘不掉你第一次吻我

2010-03-29T22:55:00.002+08:00

伍家辉-虽然我愿意

请让我靠近你轻轻对你说
别让我每个夜为你受折磨
是多么不容易才默默放手

为了我就当作这次为了我
别让我因为你被回忆折磨
而空气凝结了我们的脸孔

我别无选择

就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂虽然我愿意
心还想着你

再让我靠近你轻轻对你说
当我说我要你从此好好过
是真的否则我怎么肯放手

为了我就当作这次为了我
赐给我你现在幸福的笑容
别让恨冻结了我们的脸孔

请你做选择

I am pretty sure I have blogged this song before. Songs on repeat mode are:
1) First Love - Utada Hikaru
2) Jurassic Park Ending Theme Song - by John Williams
3) Always Online - JJ Lin

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No wonder you told me not to leave after the concert. Tears just flowed when i heard the song. And i saw you tearing as well. Damn! This is hard...

hk here i come again.

2010-03-21T01:48:00.002+08:00

I shall let the photos do the introduction...

Braised chicken feet

my fav: fried fish skin :)

za leong.. another of my fav

siewmai

hk styled porridge, the grains are smashed before boiling, that's why the porridge is smooth..

H&M

Agnes b

This is crazy. I am going to hk!! 25 may to 2 june. yes i know i'm crazy, over hk. I really wished to stay there. my hk dramas!! Actually, in may, supposed to have the school band trip. But they are taking TOO long to settle and confirm. It is really quite frustrating because i need to take leave and plan in advance. I really wanted to go with them, i have already planned to change my tix to cathay and fly to hk for 3d2n, from taiwan.

Then came that day when alice asked if i wanna go hk.

(just a quick note, dont need to even ask if i wanna go hk, because if any one of you are confirmed going to hk/confirmed planning a trip there, 90% chance i will go tog with you. - provided i have any more leave to take)

I said YES, let's go!!! and before i knew it, i booked the airtix. wah! i just went hk in 2008 for 2 whole weeks and now it is barely 2 years and i am gg back again :) if only airtix to hk is cheaper by 100+...

WOOHOO! super excited man! more shopping + eating and also, i wanna TRY to be like a hk-er. one thing for sure, we will be hiking! yeah, would it be like what i watched on dramas? haha! but hk mountains are really scary. they have this special rescue force (equipped with helicopters)to save those people who injured themselves during 'ba san'.

other than that, i will be going to camp outside TVB station. I wanna catch a glimpse (or more than one) of my hk actors :) please let me take a photo with at least one of them :) Also, i must go chill at lan kwai fong this time. I have been saying i wanna go there since dunno how long ago, but everything i didnt managed to do so.

i am going to shop for cheap deals... and buy stuffs from H&M + Espirit + Shops in Kwaifong, kwuntung and mongkok. clothes/bags/accessories!!! gosh, i think i must set aside 80% of my salary man! maybe should buy some nice bags since hk and airport have no tax :)

food: especially da da wan mian + extra serving of fried fish skin. I wanna eat za leong + hk ice lemon tea + qu lui shan + egg tarts!! and this time, i must try fried pigeons. Ok, before you all get disgusted, it is not the kind of pigeons we see in sg. their is a small kind of bird. it will be deep fried, so it tastes like chicken and super crispy (saw saw!). i ate once, but i forgot the taste le.

I am so going to supper every single night and most prob i will put on 5kg... maybe should go see see a mahjong house. hk has mahjong houses... concept is like kbox, just that u pay money to play mahjong.

Other than the usual places we are gg, i wanna visit temple street (mui gai), Dai-O and visit the Zi Wan Shan Fire station... all influenced by dramas!

in any case, i wished i could stay there abit longer la. see, i have so much things to do and so little time. but i need to come home. mama bday on 2june... although she told me to just go as long as i like.

oh yes, i will be visiting my hk colleagues too. just drop by and see the offices in hk. it is good to put a face to the voice. i have been tele conferencing with them for the past 4 mths and i really wanna know how they look like. most prob i will be bringing bengawan solo pandan cake and kueh lapis. my relatives like leh... so i assume all hk-ers will like. i guess i will visit them on the first day morning.

let me know if you guys need anything. my dad already placed his order of lapcheong.

2010-03-14T17:00:00.002+08:00

i have had one of the best weekends ever since i started working. Managed to nua in bed till 11am, have homecooked lunch at home.. Relaxing on sofa while reading the papers and eating current fav white chocolate crumble from gastomania at paragon. This feeling is so shiok, and i am beginning to have mon dark blues again.

Stuffs that i am looking forward to are:
1. Universal studioa on 28mar. Nick, edwin and mad, Im sorry i cant make it to mus art concert at the last min. I have to go uss. And it is either sat or sun. Ed, u will kill me if i chose to go uss on sat.

2. Gg to be confirmed hk trip. I am gg hk!! Yeah with alice and girls and im really excited! it
s hk sia! Sorry to ed again, i wont be gg for the band tw trip, i really want to go but no confirmation till now! I have to apply leave..sigh it is easier if u are still a student. Oh yes, ben! Wanna go hk anot? Because we are gg in first week of jun leh, the time when u are xoming home.

3. Actually no third item yet..

Gonna be working at harbourfront, for this two weeks. Not the whole week la. Vivo is a good place to gai gai after lunch but ex food :( but transportation provided by sis. Yay!

Hands abit suan while typing using qwerty keyad, thats all for now..

14 blades

2010-03-01T21:08:00.002+08:00

In the end, michelle went to watch '14 Blades' 錦衣衛 alone. Yes, alone, because
1) some have watched
2) some who want to watch but dilly dally
3) some are not even interested

To those who fall into the 3rd category, how COULD you guys not be interestd in a movie starring donnie yen?!!! ok, him aside, how could u all not be the least interested in good kongfu shows?! these kind of movie shouldnt be watched on dvd/vcd/laptop! it does no justice!

in any case, boo to those who didnt watch it. bleah! haha it was good! i love such movies, ancient chinese eras + gongfu powers = mich fav blockbusters!

main actress, 赵薇, is beautiful. I think when woman hits a certain age, they exude this confidence which is so mesmerising. I still remember watching her very first drama as a lead actress: huan zhu ge ge. Gosh, how young she was at that time! and now she has matured so beautifully. And she really has some good acting chops sia.

ok enough of main actress. how can i miss the main actor?! the wah-when-did-he-become-so-hot-and-i-failed-to-notice 甄子丹 ? donnie yen is so smoking hot! men are like wine. the older the better, except that maturity point is 50.

donnie yen is the 'it' kungfu star man...it is his time to shine. look at him:

*beware of nosebleed!*

**enough said right? sizzling hot!*

wiki-ed him. went to boston in his teens. speaks canto,chinese, eng fluently. not woah enough? he plays the piano.... well enough to be able to perform in front of audience. aw! too bad he is married with 3 kids... and his wife is da mei nu!

prince of wei

2010-02-22T00:46:00.002+08:00

i had a great shopping day with geri. we went orchard + 313 + watched movie. we havent done this for a v long time hor? everyone just needs a little retail therapy some time. today was shiok, and now i am having some monday blues :(

both of us bought stuffs... with geri who fancy blouses with lace crochet details in the front, and i was looking for a khaki/beige 3.4 pants... the zookeeper-safari colour. i found my pants at the very last min at one of my fav shops: espirit. not the shade of colour i was looking for, but the cut was nice! and i bought a plum coloured top from uniqlo. that is my fav colour for now.

i want to watch a movie this week... like the valentine day show, 14 blades etc. we watched little big soldier movie starring jackie chan and wang leehom. it is good! jackie chan movies nv fail me. i love "the myth" and "new police story". somehow, i think i like shows that depicts the warring states period of china... maybe i should borrow some books and brush up on the chinese history.

anyway, other than the good looker lee hom who looks so shuai at every angle... there was another actor who caught mine and geri's eyes.

劉承俊 who was the prince of wei. he looks really good with that long hair. (imagine orlando bloom in lotr and meitian in hua yang) at first i thought he looked abit gay... but everything changed when there was a scene when he was topless (he was injured). 6 pecs and those vein throbbing arms! those muscles were hidden!!! what a waste!

now tell me, is he hot enough??

feb post...2010 cny coming

2010-02-09T23:53:00.003+08:00

yeah, i know i'm really slow. this song is nice. always find myself in such situations, but never the happy ending. ha!

Taylor Swift: You Belong With Me

You're on the phone
With your girlfriend
She's upset
She's going off about
Something that you said
She doesn't get your humor
Like I do

I'm in my room
It's a typical tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music
She doesn't like
She'll never know your story
Like I do

But she wears short skirts
I wear t-shirts
She's cheer captain
And i'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day
When you wake up and find
That what you're looking for
Has been here the whole time

If you could see
That i'm the one
Who understands you
Been here all along
So why can't you
See you belong with me
You belong with me.

Walking the streets
With you and your worn out jeans
I can't help thinking
This is how it ought to be
Laughing on a park bench
Thinking to myself
Hey, isn't this easy?

And you've got a smile
That could light up this whole town
I haven't seen it in awhile
Since she brought you down
You say you're fine
I know you better than that
Hey whatchu doing
With a girl like that

She wears high heels
I wear sneakers
She's cheer captain
I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day
When you wake up and find
That what you're looking for
Has been here the whole time

If you could see
That i'm the one
Who understands you
Been here all along
So why can't you
See you belong with me
Standing by and
Waiting at your backdoor
All this time
How could you not know
Baby
You belong with me
You belong with me.

Oh, I remember
You driving to my house
In the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh
When you know you're about to cry
And I know your favorite songs
And you tell me about your dreams
Think I know where you belong
Think I know it's with me

Can't you see
That i'm the one
Who understands
Been here all along
So why can't you see?
You belong with me.

Have you ever thought
Just maybe
You belong with me?

Credits: Seeklyrics

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my past weekend was good. how about yrs?

I managed to squeeze out some time and did some shopping after work on fri. I bought 2 tops which are of 'xi yang yang' colours! For bottoms, i bought a mango pants during sale period and havent gotten to wear it yet. Bought a bag from bugis village. Bugis village sometimes sell really nice clothes, but too bad! i could only window shop for clothes there. the size are ridiculously small there! Bought 2 new pairs of heels for work too :)

on sat, i went for the line dinner buffet. a treat from my sis because she received her bonus :) But i think it is vry ex. not VERY worth the money la. but luckily got 38% discount. had my fill of oysters + sashimi :)

what's up on sunday? AIRSHOW! even though weekiat called it the man-show, coz we took more photos with the guys(pilots+engineer specialist) than the planes! th weather was so hot! burning hot la. we were all burnt :( tanned during cny period... sian! had paternal side reunion dinner. good food once again! i am looking forward to cny, because of the yummy goodies :) just have to drink loads of water... because you guys know how vulnerable my throat is. after reunion dinner, i went chinatown with my parents to walkwalk... soak up the cny atmosphere. very crowded because it is the last weekend to cny. But the goodies are quite ex. hmmm, the stall owners should start slashing prices man! but i had my free 'guazi' and 'taiwan jelly+mochi'. Just grab and go. haha! no laa, not so cheapo la...my parents bought some. i think everyone should go chinatown and jalan jalan at least once during cny period. it is filled with the cny mood!

and i thought this week gonna be a bad week. mentor took leave for the whole week. but now, she decided to come in on fri (phew!) i thought i might not survive... but i guess i am doing fine la hor? i am able to do work independently. just that, i dont like to attend meetings alone. i hate to talk in front of people whom i dunno. i have 'stage fright'. heart will beat faster when i know it is gg to my turn to speak. because most of those meetings are weekly meetings to catch up on the work progress. but i think i did just fine for mon and tues. unlike last week which was terrible!

new pple are coming in... my cluster will be all the mananger+directors. one of them came yst. accent accent and more accent. australian chinese. i think he is quite young and is already a manager. sitting behind me.

oooh! and finally, i have a eye candy in office!! but too bad, he doesnt work on my level. accent accent and accent again. this time is uk accent. i have to go find out what his name is.

I cant wait for friday to come. i think everyone will be having the holiday mood. haha! and got company cny lunch. lo hei and angpow lucky draw are included! min angpow money = $8? so i should be at least $8 richer!

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btw, if you guys havent knew, my application got rejected again. am i going to apply again? yes i am. meanwhile, i am stuck in office. :(

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singer: 陈奕迅 song:我们都寂寞

赶着下班的计程车
一啸而过
下班后不想回家的我
谁要理我
很多年之前我问
朋友来陪我有谁来爱我
买醉的时候你认识我
最后还一起生活
为怕寂寞我们做了很多
最没空寂寞
偶遇你之后我说
想有人爱我就有人爱我

可是我不知道想要甚么
不知道拥有甚么
可能我们都寂寞
迎面一个老尼姑走过
把路灯看破
有你在家里苦等的我
难道比她幸福得多
现在不想下班的我
没爱好难过有爱算甚么
我恨我我不知道想要甚么
我不知道拥有甚么
可能我们都寂寞

走过马路的我说
一个人寂寞两个人寂寞
可能我我不知道拥有甚么
而我又缺少甚么
我害怕甚么怕甚么
我不知道爱算甚么
而我又算甚么我们都寂寞

i love this song for the zhuan ying. and i think 徐詠琳 sang it much better than eason. check it out:

and watch this version of poker face:

梁曉珺 voice is so-so for this song. but i think she is quite hot! and got the seh for the song. i like!

and another song by A*Mei

Singer: 张惠妹 Song: 知道

既然都知道
既然睡不着
不如就把黑夜熬成破晓
我为自己骄傲
我终于可以
不靠感情这样过来了
想你是很好
但我的心在退烧
逃假装是在寻找
我明明就不需要
人的心若是关不牢
爱到不知如何是好
你能给多少
突然我就是不想要
逃从天涯到海角
烧泪早就不知不觉烧干了
你爱的谁都看得到
可是我就很不想要
所以我这样放开了
怎么我会错乱了心跳
是什么让我不堪其扰 oh~
既然都知道
爱过了就好
逃从天涯到海角
烧泪早就不知不觉烧干了
你爱的谁都看得到
一厢情愿让我依靠
却不曾问我要不要

Credits: Baidu
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cny is coming....

2010-01-24T22:23:00.002+08:00

Singapore Airshow is here once again. I missed going for the 2008 because I didnt know about it. But alas, so what if i know about this year, noone wants to go anyway. either pple dont know about it, or not the least interested or no time to go. oh wells...planes are forever so fasinating to me.

Life is getting very monotonous these days.

mon-fri: reach office by 820am
start working at 830am
lunch at 12-ish
work till 530/6pm
go home have dinner and rest

actually i only look forward to the last point. How sad.

I knew working wont be fun and enjoyable unless i am doing something i like. That's why i am really glad i took a much longer break than others. That long break made me realise alot. Luckily for the long break, I was able to spend more time with my family, lunch and go grocery shopping with mum, spend some quality time at home and etc. Take now for instance, even if I want to do those stuffs, I cant...

Weekends are much better. After tuition, I will either go out or have lunch/dinner with family. I treasure the night time... and i will continue on my hk dramas :) just finished the fireman drama... loves!

Maybe i should inject some life and new activities into my boring life. I am thinking of taking thai lessons again. Perhaps I should pack my room once again. You have no idea how messy it is AGAIN. Arrrghh!! Or i should spend some time looking for another job. The irritating job hunt shall start soon.

I appreciate the job offer and opportunities that were given to me. But this cant go on. It is not my aim in life. I cant feel my passion in the industry. I hate myself for looking forward to eod everyday, this cant do seriously. But as I have said and told myself, since I am at it, i will definitely do my best.

I guess, just hope june will come faster... and i will take a well deserved break by then. I guess i will be doing some travelling. Anyway, please pray that I get selected for the job la. I really hope i will. If not, i will continue to apply and apply again.

cny is coming. spring cleaning definitely doesnt exist for my room. Damn, i should get started! My aim is to clear my computer table and desk free of anything. I mean, cleared of every single thing. And cny clothes, i cant find any xi yang yang colours! :( no red hues this year for me. im planning to go for the orange-peach feel this year. shoes! arh, i dun think i will get new shoes. i will wear my red clarks. hair: did contemplate to cut it at shoulder length... but decided not to. Maybe in june or what bah. curls make my face look fatter... so curls should be done much later in life.

anyway, just a random note.. as i dont really keep track of every single expenditure, sometimes i wonder how much of my money goes to savings, food, transport, shopping... and i got a shock when i did my sums just a few days back.

saving 10K for this 6 months job is unachievable, unless i starve myself to death or i stop buy anything. Both scenarios, are highly impossible and i will never be able to do so. I knew i spend most of my money on food... but i didnt realise transportation is so expensive. Unless i am willing to wake up and leave home at 7am with my dad and go back home with him everyday... i should be able to save at least $50 bucks per month. haha, not worth waking up at 630 and leave house at 7. way too early.

ok, 1130pm... brain is asking me to sleep. I have a craving for starbucks java chip... shall satisfy that craving! this week will be a long, busy and hectic one for me. hope i will survive well... if not i will be fed to the sharks!

till then...

*i am just curious, are YOU still reading my blog?*

tired of waitin part 2

2010-01-18T22:20:00.003+08:00

yeah yeah, i know i havent been blogging. work just zapped up all my energy. the remaining energy i have left, i wanna use it to watch my hk fireman season 3 drama. it is one of my top favourite dramas. the cast, mainly the lead actor, made up for the predictable storyline. this time round, they have more 'fire fighting' scenes as well! i just love tvb. they always have occupation kind of dramas. channel 5 is not too bad this time. The Pupil is on every thurs night... and i think it will be good. (i missed the first 2 ep)

anyway, i saw 2pm singing Tired of Waiting on stage news. and before i go click on those youtube link... i wanna redo my prediction. rem a month back, i wrote who sang which part for the song... and i wonder if i am correct. i havent been catching with the latest korean news! wth! i feel like i have lost my life during weekdays. this week is gonna be a really busy one.. with thurs gg down to harbourfront for meeting. but at least they let me report straight there at 9am.. so i shall be sitting in jiejie car.

and to think that i will be busier this week, my etraining modules had to come this week. i have in total 12 modules... and today i stayed back in office till 7pm to finish 5 of them. the rest of the modules are 1hr to 2hrs long. -_- oh at 515pm, i found out that i have to go for training... to let ourselves familiarise with some new system which is gg to take place.

not complaining abt the amt of work coz i have had a wonderful weekend... that could last me through the whole of this week. sat i had a fantastic steamboat gathering with some of my sectionmates. we shall organise the malaysia trip in may/june... since almost half my section are from malaysia (different parts) and they offered their houses for us to stay :) sun was weekiat's birthday! and geri, i love the brussel sprouts place. maybe because i am a seafood lover... and the soup was good! i dont think it is too ex if you dont order beer or extra dishes. just a starter pot of mussels is good enough. love the chunky fries and jap mayo!

anyway, before i digress further... let me listen to the song once more time and guess the parts.

Tired of Waiting

*Taec (Taec) : Gidarida jichinda, you know

Wooyoung (Wooyoung) JUNHO : Gidaridaga jichinda, hum, you know
Neon neon nae mamani, uh

Junho (Junho) JUNHO : Gidaridaga tto jichinda, hum
Neoneun ajikdo nalgi eokhani, oh no, no

*Chansung (Chansung) CHANSUNG : Haruga jinado nan neoreul mot ijeo
Handari jinado nan neoreul mot nwajweo
Ajikdo neol wonhan nae mameul ani, oh no, no

Jaebeom (Jaebeom) WOOYOUNG : Neoreul gidarida jichyeo michigo
Tto haru haru maeil gati ilnyeoni gatgo
(Junsu) WOOYOUNG : Oh, nan, na, na, na gidaridaga
(Jaebeom) WOOYOUNG : Neol gidaridaga, yeah

(Junsu) JUNSU : Geum bangirado niga dashi olgeotman gatgo
Dwidora seomyeon dashi neoreul bol geotman gata

Junsu (Junsu) JUNSU : Oh, nan, na, na, na jichyeo michigo
Nan jichyeo michigo, yeah

*Nickhun (Nickhun) NICKHUN : Niga olkkabwa tto cham neunda

Junsu (Junsu) : oh yeah

*Nickhun (Nickhun) NICKHUN : Neoreul ajikdo nan gidarinda, oh yeah

Chansung (Chansung) CHANSUNG : Handari jinado nan neoreul mot ijeo
Ilnyeoni jinado, nan neoreul mot nwajweo
Ajikdo neol wonhan nae mameul ani, oh no, no

Wooyoung (Jaebeom) WOOYOUNG : Neoreul gidarida jichyeo michigo
Tto haru haru maeil gati ilnyeoni gatgo

Jaebeom (Junsu) WOOYOUNG : Oh, nan, na, na, na

Wooyoung (Jaebeom) WOOYOUNG : gidaridaga Neol gidaridaga, yeah

(Junsu) JUNSU : Geum bangirado niga dashi olgeotman gatgo
Dwidora seomyeon dashi neoreul bol geotman gata
Oh, nan, na, na, na jichyeo michigo

(Junsu + Jaebeom) JUNSU : Nan jichyeo michigo, yeah

*Taec (Taec) TAEC : Wae ireohke nan jakku himdeunde meorissogi bokhaphae
Jukgetne gidarigo gidarideon nainde ajikdo soshigi eobtneunde
Neo ttaeme uldeon naega aninde na ttaeme tteonal niga aninde
Eojjaeseo ireon naega himdeunde eotteohke jigeum neomu himdeunde

(Junsu) JUNSU : Ilnyeonirado nan gidarilgeoya
Shib nyeonirado nan gidarilgeoya
Oh, nan, nan, nan, nan, nan, nan, nan, nan gidaridaga
(Jaebeom) JUNSU : Nan jichyeodo joha

(Jaebeom) I THINK IS JAEBEOM : Neoreul gidarida jichyeo michigo
Tto haru haru maeil gati ilnyeoni gatgo

*Junsu (Junsu) I THINK IS JAEBEOM: Oh, nan, na, na, na gidaridaga
(Junsu + Jaebeom) : Neol gidaridaga, yeah

*Chansung (Chansung) i THINK IS JAEBEOM : Geum bangirado niga dashi olgeotman gatgo
Dwidora seomyeon dashi neoreul bol geotman gata

*Junsu (Junsu) I THINK IS JAEBEOM: Oh, nan, na, na, na jichyeo michigo
*Chansung (Chansung) : Nan jichyeo michigo, yeah

Credits: kpopjang!
Translations: BK! musictology.wordpress

Front part might be easier to distinguish, then with the auto tune and heavy loud beats, it makes it very very confusing. I need a break. I might change it.

* = confirmed (last time)
and since jaebeom is not back, his part i guess is sung by wooyoung.

those in normal font, is what i have written the last time.
In brackets, is what i just heard and wrote
In CAPS, is the actual singers.

2009-12-29T16:46:00.002+08:00

heyhey, i havent been updating blog! In the airport now, i will be away till 5jan, dont miss me guys!

Anyway, i wanna wish geri a happy birthday! Sorry geri, i will miss yr bday celebration, we will celebrate tog with goat when i return bah.

Btw, i have found a job, the work is interesting and i kinda like doing processes. But long term, hmmm, never my cup of tea. Pay wise is standard grad pay, but environment there, haha i shall not comment too much here. Ask me personally bah!

If u guys wan anything, just sms or call me bah.

Paiseh! This year nv send out xmas cards :( wish u guys a merry christmas (12days of christmas) and a very happy new year!

2009-11-21T00:19:00.001+08:00

They said by eating chocolates, it will make you feel happier. Then why are my tears still flowing?

2009-11-21T00:08:00.002+08:00

Job hunting is tough. Getting a job is tougher. You guys wont know how I feel right now. Waiting for news suck.

Screw it la.

good bye dr su

2009-11-20T03:24:00.003+08:00

Life can be so fragile. I am really very thankful to Dr Su for everything, esp the exchange matters. Although it is too late, I am glad that I went and said thankyou to you. It was hard holding back the tears. Goodbye Dr Su, may you rest in peace.

Jay part1

2009-11-18T02:07:00.002+08:00

status: still VERY free

HAHA! Warning ahead: you guys can stop reading this post because it will be all about jay.

Too many saddening news about jay. Perhaps you all might think the news might be untrue. But it is really accurate. Because my little fan girl writes for one of the korean sites, so i believe her news are reliable. Sometimes she informs me before the news is being published.

And yes, that news about s*msung seemed to be really accurate! Because of the deal, he chose to send jay away. Yes, so what if he is a businessman? Sometimes, there are many things such as friendship/brotherhood that are more important than money. And see, more deals and commercials are rolling in.

All the hype about jay might be coming back and businessman appearing on show to address the issue are merely a publicity stunt, just in time for the release of their new album. Why wait till now to talk about the jay's issue? Oh btw, businessman did not add any new points. He was just regurgitating everything that was already mentioned before. And, to add more hype to the already hyped up album, it was named 01:59pm. wth!

Oh come on, give us a break! Cant you guys have an official press statement to tell us what is going on? What will happen to jay? I applaude the k hottest people, they are the ones doing everything they could. The most recent was to hold jay banner and stood outside the building for the whole duration of the music show. It was freezing cold. The rest of us wished we could do much more....other than just to wait for news.

Latest news being...

Our dear 6pm wont be able to last long.
Jay lost everything.
As he is bounded by contract terms, he is not able to do anything else.
With regards to the changing of display pic and absence of profile on homepage, it is said that they are going to promote 2pm as a 6-member group from now on.
Jay is now out.

jay will not be jae beom anytime soon.

*credits: everything from 2oneday
**Disclaimer: Writer's own views and comments.

When 当你 was a hit song

2009-11-12T03:16:00.003+08:00

This is SO secondary school. I am referring to the song 当你. Gosh, I wondered how did it pop out of my head! But to be truthfully, I like it. A nice and simple love ballad by 王心凌. Actually she has a couple of songs which I think are worth listening to. That includes 睫毛弯弯, 月光, 灰姑娘的眼泪 and 花的嫁衣. Woah, quite a number of songs huh? Her singing is not bad.. maybe she should just ditch her cutesy image.

My biological clock is screwed. I am sleeping very late, yet starting to wake up early. What's wrong with me man? And I believe that I have compensated all the sleeping hours I missed during studying days. -_- goodness. Plus I always feel hungry in the middle of the night, so I snacked on my danish butter cookies. Damn! I bought a total of 3 tins. And because of my uber highly sensitive throat, I have to drink loads of water. No wonder I am putting on weight... very evident from my face. :(:(:(:(:(:(:(:( Please tell me it is due to water retention.

Sorry guys, I know my blog is boring/getting boring. Because there isnt any interesting things happening to me. Not that I am wishing for anything boomz or shingz to happen. Yar I am kinda slow. I JUST watched that shan-ross show featuring Ris. She is a classic one.

Ok, an interesting update. My volunteering application is accepted. I will be helping out in Standard Chartered Marathon on 6Dec. I think I will be one of the many road marshals at Padang. I will know more details at a later date. BUT actually I indicated that I want to be the drink station crew. HAHA! You guys know the reason ^.^ yaya, pour water 'accidentally' on the runners right? So clever. Dont tell me the organisers knew that!!! No wonder I became a road marshal like the many others.

It is quite 0.0 not to know who is reading your blog. So those who are reading, please leave me a tag ya. And YOU! Are you reading? Tell me who your reliable source is?! It is better not to know so much about that blog entry, seriously. Because I do not wish to lie to you. But the truth is abit hard to swallow.

And ryan's tuition is going to start soon. Yes, his mum requested to start a week earlier. And yes, she should agree on my increased rate because her son did well! Hello! F9 to A2 in 4 months?! Woah! I am really happy for him. But this means more pressure on poor kid and myself. Hmmm, but it gave me abit of assurance that my teaching methods worked just fine. I guess I will be sticking to that.

Did I mention that I finished packing all my nus notes? Oh finally... next will be my college stuffs. The notes are stacked neatly, but I feel like throwing some stuffs away. Seriously, do you guys keep the tutorials and lecture notes? I wonder if I should throw them away. My uni friends, they threw away their maths tutorials leh. They only kept the lecture notes. Uni stuffs throw away leh. Hmmm...

I feel good after re-packing my postcards. I got tonnes of them! I used to collect them. Ok not used to collect them. I am still collecting but to a smaller extent. Last time was hiong hiong. I am quite surprised over my collection. I looked at every single piece again. And I remembered one incident very vividly. I was collecting this Qoo collections which consist of 4 colours. But no matter how hard I searched at the ZO cards stands, there wasnt a single orange coloured Qoo postcard. And postcards at the stands were changed very frequently. I was quite :( because the each design of the Qoo postcards was so pretty. And then, my sis knew I was looking for the orange coloured one and she bought it online for me. I was really happy that day. I remembered she paid quite abit for one 'free' postcard.

Anyway there are quite alot of stuffs for me to pack. Pack bu wan de leh!! Because I am clearing stuffs from my cupboards and wardrobes. Although the mess is hidden behind the wooden doors, I can 'see' it! I wanna cccllllleeeeeeaaarrrrr them.

Ok abrupt ending, but I am feeling tired. Jiayou to all the mugging people including my little bro. Yes, you CAN!

are you tired of waiting?

2009-11-09T23:44:00.002+08:00

status: still a "FRESH" graduate

one of my friends said we have to label ourselves as that, instead of jobless or unemployed.

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time: 1.59pm

ok I know this term was coined by the hottests and many thought it was silly. Why is it when Jay left, 2pm became 1.59pm or 6pm? It did not seemed to be making any sense right? Some argued that if Jay were to come back, it is 7pm then? Ha, i say, dont think so rationally/mathematically. Without Jay, the idol group 2pm is not complete and thus it is not the same 2PM that we have been supporting. Hence, we said it is 1.59pm. Yes of course it could be 1.50, 1.57 or whatever, but we just NEED one more member (Jay). So, one more member, one more minute. 6pm is because now there are 6 of them...

anyway, i am supportive of what the khottests are doing. Actually all of us just need to get an answer from jyp himself. We know jay will still be under jype because of the contract he signed before debut. But, the question is: Will he be coming back to 2PM?

I do not think it is a difficult question to answer.

If yes, everyone will be very happy and will fully support the 6-member 2pm. Because we know, jay will be back as a member of 2pm someday. How long, we are not sure. But for sure, he will be back as one of them.

If no *CHOY*, then perhaps it might be time to move on. Those who want to continue supporting 6-member 2pm, by all means. Those who only support 2pm because of jay, hmmm... will probably place their attention and money to other idol groups then.

Please, dont make him a solo artiste. I have this feeling quite some time ago that jyp might "re-debut" jay as solo. Damn, please dont.... i think he might lose some fans for this move.

And please, dont let us wait too long. Afterall, it was just a posting to his friend, a young american teen grumbling to his friend how life sucked at that point of time, how much he wanna be back home... why read so much into it? I dont really understand. Words and terms used may sound harsh/inappropriate, but hey man, it is the lingo of a westernised kid.

If his words had hurt the patriotic citizens'heart/minds/souls, instead of punishing/banishing him, reflect why he had to say all that? What have he faced and suffered to say all that? Why not think of ways to help him and those other people who are facing the same situations.

Please dont put him in cold storage for 2 years.

Sigh. This is solely my views and what I think/spectulate. Please dont come and sue me. Please dont ask me to go and die.

Oh i just saw a new post: 2pm for samsung corby advertisement. Hmm, it kinda confirmed stories and theories i have heard weeks ago. Totally suck.

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In any case, their full album is coming out. no jay on the cover, tentatively. Yar, i am still hopefully. a 7-member 2pm cover would generate a better sale volume dont you think so? So why waste this opportunity? Why sacrifice this cash cow for just mere comments he said? (btw, comments were made 4 bloody YEARS ago.) Why not make everyone happy? There are more fans and supporters than stupid angry netizens. Arh!

Song: Tired of Waiting

I think many have expressed that they will not get tired of waiting. But though they wont be tired of waiting for jay to come back, i guess they just wanna know WHEN he will come back. Even if it were to be a year, i dont think fans will get tired of waiting.

I like this kinda of song. Catchy tune and heavy beats... but maybe could do without the auto-tune thingy. Auto-tune makes it SO difficult to distinguish the voices. Really smart move.

I seriously can hear jay's singing. Maybe i might be hearing things. Many said his voice wasnt included in this track. I think he sang the first chorus. I am making a guess on who sang which part.

*Taec: Gidarida jichinda, you know

Wooyoung: Gidaridaga jichinda, hum, you know
Neon neon nae mamani, uh

Junho:Gidaridaga tto jichinda, hum
Neoneun ajikdo nalgi eokhani, oh no, no

*Chansung: Haruga jinado nan neoreul mot ijeo
Handari jinado nan neoreul mot nwajweo
Ajikdo neol wonhan nae mameul ani, oh no, no

Jaebeom: Neoreul gidarida jichyeo michigo
Tto haru haru maeil gati ilnyeoni gatgo
Oh, nan, na, na, na gidaridaga
Neol gidaridaga, yeah

Geum bangirado niga dashi olgeotman gatgo
Dwidora seomyeon dashi neoreul bol geotman gata
Junsu: Oh, nan, na, na, na jichyeo michigo
Nan jichyeo michigo, yeah

*Nickhun: Niga olkkabwa tto cham neunda,
Junsu: oh yeah
*Nickhun: Neoreul ajikdo nan gidarinda, oh yeah

Chansung: Handari jinado nan neoreul mot ijeo
Ilnyeoni jinado, nan neoreul mot nwajweo
Ajikdo neol wonhan nae mameul ani, oh no, no

Wooyoung: Neoreul gidarida jichyeo michigo
Tto haru haru maeil gati ilnyeoni gatgo

Jaebeom: Oh, nan, na, na, na
Wooyoung: gidaridaga Neol gidaridaga, yeah

Geum bangirado niga dashi olgeotman gatgo
Dwidora seomyeon dashi neoreul bol geotman gata
Oh, nan, na, na, na jichyeo michigo
Nan jichyeo michigo, yeah

*Taec: Wae ireohke nan jakku himdeunde meorissogi bokhaphae
Jukgetne gidarigo gidarideon nainde ajikdo soshigi eobtneunde
Neo ttaeme uldeon naega aninde na ttaeme tteonal niga aninde
Eojjaeseo ireon naega himdeunde eotteohke jigeum neomu himdeunde

Ilnyeonirado nan gidarilgeoya
Shib nyeonirado nan gidarilgeoya
Oh, nan, nan, nan, nan, nan, nan, nan, nan gidaridaga
Nan jichyeodo joha

Neoreul gidarida jichyeo michigo
Tto haru haru maeil gati ilnyeoni gatgo
*Junsu: Oh, nan, na, na, na gidaridaga
Neol gidaridaga, yeah

*Chansung: Geum bangirado niga dashi olgeotman gatgo
Dwidora seomyeon dashi neoreul bol geotman gata
*Junsu: Oh, nan, na, na, na jichyeo michigo
*Chansung: Nan jichyeo michigo, yeah

Credits: kpopjang!
Translations: BK! musictology.wordpress

Front part might be easier to distinguish, then with the auto tune and heavy loud beats, it makes it very very confusing. I need a break. I might change it.

* = confirmed

i cant get to sleep

2009-11-03T05:04:00.000+08:00

i couldnt get to sleep. I havent had isomnia for a very long time, usually i will get to sleep once my head touches the pillow. But not today. Now i am using my hp to blog because kinda lazy to switch on my comp.

Why cant i get to sleep? It is really frustrating! But i jolly well know the reason. It is 515am now. Dawn gonna be here... I really hate this feeling. I remembered this happpened when i was in exchange. I couldnt sleep until daybreak. I could hear the birds chipping! Then i guessed i did fall asleep eventually because of exhaustion. But i was up before 10.

Sigh, with all this blogging, i am more awake... No! I hate my body clock! I wanna break this cycle. Okies, i am not making much sense right now, so if u guys want to stop reading, by all means. I am just writing random nonsensical stuffs.

Ok tata, crying makes me tired, or rather makes my eyes feel dry and tired. No no, not to worry. If you have not already know, i will cry when i am angry with myself. Maybe this is my form of outlet.

Btw, it is the time of the year for hairy crabs and white truffles. I have only eaten hairy crabs once and it was quite a long timeago! White truffles are uber uber expensive fungi. And michelle reis had white truffles served in her wedding la, la, multi-millionnaire husband mah. I wonder how it would taste like, raw? Sweet? Smelly? Bitter?

I wanna try foie gras and caviar too...

Anyway, to my fellow friends who are busy mugging for coming uni exams, all the best and jiayou! We will meet upafter exams for sure! To geri, happy working and dont ot till too late! And to myself, i hope you will receive some gd news soon. Till then...

new blog skin?

2009-11-02T19:05:00.002+08:00

Sorry, I know my blog layout kinda suck la. The problem is the space is too small, my photos are too big to fit into it. But I didnt want to change because my junior's bro designed it for me... and I kinda like the colour. But the problem is annoying me at times.

Anyway, it is hard to search for a nice blog skin. For my exchange blog, i took 2 days to find a suitable skin and I must say I am really pleased with it.

After searching for 20min, I found one which suit my mood/feelings right now.. but I think you guys will scold me. So I shall not change it.... maybe abit later. Or I should just change it and let u guys see right? Or just for for one day??

Haha, do you know what it is???

october post

2009-10-29T16:26:00.002+08:00

Long overdue post. It will be a summary of what I did (not everything though) in the month of october, since it is coming to an end.

I decided to try my hands on making this ovenbaked crabmeat stuffed mushroom. I always thought mushroomes would make a nice appetizer for a meal. With the cheese melting on top of the mushroom, it tasted good. But I think I could use with less cheese the next time. Maybe add waterchestnut and white onions into the crabmeat-fish mixture to give it abit more crunch and add breadcumbs on top and fry it :) Mushroom might not be as juicy as the ovenbaked ones but might appeal to those who do not like the "raw" mushroom taste. I should have also marinate my crabmeat and fish alittle though...

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Mid Autumn Festival 中秋节

Like every single year, I lit my paper lantern up and walked around my neighbourhood. I think some chinese customs should still be preserved. Like cny, we will get angpows, so midautumn festival, we should be playing with lanterns under the moonlight. It was quite a sad sight actually, noone was playing with candles or lanterns anymore. What happened to our chinese festival? Maybe everyone is busy....

I look forward to every 农历八月十五.. not only can I light up the oldschool paper lanterns my mum bought, I guess it is the only time I give business to 大中国's 月饼 . Their mooncakes are still the best I ever tasted; their lotus paste is moist and not overly sweet! But a new favourite was added to my list.

Carlton Hotel: Sweet potato chestnut snowskin mooncakes. WOOHOO! it is really delicious. Like icecream :) They had the durian snowskin ones too but i didnt eat it of course.

It was good for midautumn festival to fall on a saturday.

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Not over with pink, crystals,blings and glitters, I decided to BLING my external hard disk. It was pure white and provided such a good canvas to add some blingblings to it. Actually I did hesitated for awhile, I was afraid I would spoilt the look of it. So I did the sides only.

I think it looks fantastic and has my style, haha! I didnt do anything to the top in case I regret it. Oh, the blings are cheap, 2.50 bucks only. Ok, it is not real swaroski crystals of course, one crystal cost a dollar... i cant afford it la.

Ok, this hard disk is really a GREAT BUY! thanks to all who have told me to buy it at the recent it fair :) it definitely came in handy as my computer crashed and i had to reformat my computer. Luckily i had the hdd and my documents/songs/photos could be saved!

This hdd is one of my precious possessions right now, it contains really old photos, many songs and the latest addition: 2PM videos from geri! WOW! I think i better do a backup somewhere still.... how? Another hard disk arh??

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See that gap at the rhs of the photo? Yeah, i was supposed to be standing there but I have left. And that was wooyoung's position in the 2nd album! WHEE!

There are quite a number of videos of our timestop and dance flashmob at youtube... as well as those from other countries. I love the koreans'. I think it was the best organized!

Latest news being jype is going to release 2pm, or rather 6pm album this coming 11 nov. WTH? Without jaebeom the leadja? Even when they knew there is going to be a boycott from the fans and the jay hype is not dying down but going strong, they are still continuing with the release?

The boycott might seemed silly, how many hottest do you think will NOT buy the album? I think the boycott might be a failure. Saying is easy, but when you are actually doing it, it is tough. Many said although they support jay, but they have to support the other 6 members. Oh wells, but in my opinion, if this album were to do well, it will prove one fact: Noone is indispensible. Without the leadja Jaebeom, 2pm CAN still survive. So will jaeboem come back then? You tell me.

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BottleTreePark

It is located at a ulu place (Khatib) but it is quite accessible. Just take a train down to Khatib and walk for 10-15 minutes. The bottle shaped trees are supposed to be the highlight of the place, but sadly I saw only ONE. They said the trees were at the other end of the park -_- The entrance I went in by was for fishing and prawning. I think it is a good place for families to gather together. They have this pond, which allows children (4-12 years old) to catch guppies and longkang fish. Although the pond isnt very big, I guess there are enough fishes for every child. I mean, a tank full of guppies is quite a lot! I used to like this activity alot! My mum used to bring me and my brother to paris ris park and we could spend 3 hours catching the fishes. Then we would cycle for another 2 hours before heading back home.

Though the fishing seemed to be fun for the kids, prawning seemed otherwise for the adults. I will not go to that place to prawn anymore. Firstly, the prawn pond was so small, but there were like >30 rods in the pond. And noone seemed to be able to catch prawns! And guess what, in an hour, i only caught ONE pathetic small prawn :( we rent 2 rods and the other had no luck at all. In the end, we bbq-ed the one and only prawn on the spot. No prizes to guess who ate it. Me of course.

But other than the 2 activities, you can paddle the swan boat, somewhat similar to what I did with geri,yan,wk,zh in Taiwan. In my photo background, that is where you will do the swaning (the website uses this word!!) I enjoyed paddling this in Taiwan, though was super tiring for the unfit me.

Although 30 bucks for 1 prawn is really expensive, i had a good time with my ex colleagues and i wished we could meet more often. Some of them meet reguarly for lunch since they work in the cbd area, but i wished we could have our weekly badminton or monthly ktv sessions :(

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Any idea where this place is? Can you guys see the familar building in the background??

Ban Nee Gardens at amber road.

That day I accompanied my mum to get some orchids for our garden. And my dad love their bougainvillea :) so colourful right!!! But our garden is too small

Ban Nee sells a WIDE range and variety of plants, together with all types of soils and pots. The only bad thing is their service. Totally suck. Not the boss problem, i think they have left the business to the foreign workers who dont really care.

2 cute ones that spotted my eyes

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At Marina Port. It is a floating restaurant! Taken on my way to Kusu island. I think for two years i didnt go to kusu island to pray because I didnt have the time. With better crowd management this time, it made things easier for praying. But it also made our waiting time very much longer. We queued for 2 hours before boarding the ferry. Coming back was worse, I think it was nearly 3 hours of queuing time! But everything was worth it!

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Weather has been really punishing and I have fallen ill. Sigh, been staying at home to rest loh. But I think i will recover in 2 days time :) till then!

jay love!

2009-10-19T04:13:00.003+08:00

468th post.
status: unemployed

As you guys have already known, I showed my love for jay park on sat 17oct. Together with the hottests (yes that's the name for supporters of 2pm), we did a time stop flashmob in front of wisma atrium. Because the organisers said we couldnt post any photos up until 20th, i cant show you guys the photos or videos. It was my first time doing a flashmob and it was definitely an experience. To take things further, I ended up to be one of the ten dancers, dancing to the chorus of their 3 hits (I Hate You, Again and Again, 10 point out of 10). Till now, I cant believe I actually did that. I never dance hiphop before (except for mass dances in jc). Call me a crazy fan girl, but I can totally assure you guys I am considered mild/nothing. I was the ONLY one not knowing the steps of those popular songs, though I can teach you guys next time :) Learning and perfecting those dance steps within few hours was too much for me. Seriously, the other dancers were crazy fans. Not only to 2pm. They knew practically the dance steps to every popular song from any korean group. I was utterly shocked.

I was so scared by them to the point that I decided to stop finding/watching any new videos in case I might be like them....one day.

I better not say anything about them lest anyone finds my blog by chance. But in any case, after this whole thing (if you guys know what I am talking about), I am certain that education is really important. To have a good education is essential. Not only it opens doors to more options, it determines how a person will carry himself/herself; the way they behave, their mannerisms and their thinking. No wonder parents dislike their children to "chase" idols. To them, it is childish/immature/waste of money. Yes, it is true actually. Maybe the parents have gone through this stage before and came to realize the evil truth. Perhaps you have to go through it once to get what I mean.

I had fun on friday and saturday. it was great to see SO many supporters of 2pm, especially for jay. It was too happening and they decided to do an encore dance and organiser will be putting that video up instead of the first dance at 2pm because the latter was less messy, only the dancers danced. I went off after the first dance so I wont be appearing in the video. At first, I felt that it was such a waste because I had spent time practising for it. But after second thoughts, it might be better actually.

post f1

2009-09-29T01:29:00.002+08:00

WOW! There are so many movies coming soon that I want to watch. But I guess I am the only one who really have so much free time in her hands.

1) Fame: This movie should be good, it is a movie musical. It will be about this group of singers, dancers, actors and actresses chasing their dreams and passions to gain fame and recognition. I will be watching this for sure.

2) 500 Days of Summer: Caught the trailer of it before the movie Ugly Truth was shown. Seemed not too bad..

3) 2012: I like this kind of adventure-meets-mother nature shows. I enjoyed watching Vertical Limits and The Day After Tomorrow. Ok most prob i will be catching this..

4) Haeundae: The Deadly Tsunami : The title explained it all. For sure, i will watch this as well :)

5) Surrogate: Sci-fri movie never failed to interest me, like The Island, Armaggedon and X-Men. But they will be shown on hbo very soon leh.

6) Julie & Julia: Based on 2 true stories. WAH! with power actress meryl streep and amy adams... i think this one will be a sure-watch for me.

7) My Sister's Keeper: Based on an award-winning novel!!! But I dont know if I will watch it, the time traveller's wife movie was said to be boring. Maybe some stories are meant to be read...

8) The Princess and the Frog: walt disney movies wont go wrong! But sometimes, some animated movies arent really my cup of tea. If I have the time, i might consider this...

wah, eight movies. actually only fame is showing right now. As for the others, they are coming out next or the following week.

I will be giving intensive tuition lessons this 2 weeks. Everyone is having exams at the same time (on same day somemore). psle, sec sch and even international sch. everyday except fri (i need a breather!) So i guess i will be going out on fri :) dinner is kfc with geri yan weeks. Who wanna join us? Anywayy, I am not complaining abt intensive tuition lessons, what to complain? money earned will compensate for the spending for the past few months!!! i hope i hear some good news soon from there. regarding my job-finding status, i will be sending in more resumes this week! haha! yeah i have to be more pro-active isnt it?

And geri!!! i am finishing on idol army!!! noooooo! then no more 2pm videos to watch le! yeah, i wished i was doing my exchange right now, because they had a fan flashmob at toronto. Seriously, if i were to be at waterloo now, i will definitely buy a bus tix down to toronto to participate in the mob. How cool can that be? acually, NO! i shouldnt do that, i should jolly well FLY my way to seattle instead! hahaha! And my disgusting nick now says: my baby is at seattle. whahahah! Sigh, the hype of jaebeom incident is dying down. NOOOoo!! please dont forget about 2pm's leadja, please dont forget about him. I will seriously wait for his return... come back as a stronger guy... come back with no worries....

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F1 is really cool enough to lure me back to the 3rd,4th and 5th year. Ok, the final year, i really wanna be able to afford to view the pitstop, that's where all the real actions are, buddy! Ferrari, you must work much harder! I shall buy more of your merchandise in the coming years ok? please lower your prices. too ex!! And that guy driving the renault : fer alonso, u are a fierce driver. Noone cut the corners as sharp as you did. my god. and to my surprise, toyota raced fast. thumbs up for you!

2009-09-26T16:53:00.003+08:00

THIS IS YAY-NESS!!! my fave team:) watching the race with geri and yq

2009-09-24T03:34:00.002+08:00

"i'm upset that you always eat chicken breast. You dont have to lose weight so eat alot. I'll buy you alot of yummy food."

Words from the heart, i dont think this is scripted. arh! Cant you guys see how nice & sincere this person is?

it hurts :(

beautiful sunday1309

2009-09-14T01:56:00.002+08:00

turmoil of feelings. and i am regretting some stuffs le.

it breaks my heart to see you in this state. i think everyone was shocked too. but i guess this time, goodbye does really mean we will never be together again. i seriously doubt all of us will be able to come together again to play together.

alas, Beautiful Sunday has ended. thankyou u guys (geri,goat,huimin) for coming down to esplanade to support!! thanks alot for taking the time off man :)

after 'one hand one heart', i told myself this performance better had to be good. because it will most prob be my last concert at esplanade. And i'm really woah-ed. was it full house. esplanade full house. omg! really shocked but happy!

alot to talk about... but i guess i shall leave it for the next time.

for now, my nusws journey: It ended on a high F note.

Ga in pic

2009-09-09T00:25:00.003+08:00

status: yes, i'm still idling :)

some updates. the past week has been hell for me. the more i know, the scarier it gets. but i have to thank a person who is my health consultant. i kept asking him questions and he has been really good in feeding me with medical information i need to know. ya it is something regarding my health and i was really scared stiff. But no worries for now because i'm fine already. i went to see the doctor on sunday and took some medicine.

so beside emo-ing abt my health for days, i'm now a fan of 2pm! thanks to geri and zhenhua for introducing them to me. gosh!! the shows are really interesting : wild bunny and the making of dirty eyed girls. initially i like Nickhun. "khun" in Thai means "you". ("i love you" is "dichan rak khun!") But as i watched on, Jaebeom is so freaking hot. His bod makes me drool! he's really quite a joker and always joking around and making merry! I also like geri's fav guy: Taecyeon. He's cute (bunny poster) and he wasnt even annoyed when his team members made fun of him. High threshold for nonsense indeed.

I hate those netizens. please come back jay :(:(:(

And after watching the making of dirty eyed girls (parody of brown eyed girls), i was mesmerized by one of the girls in BEG: Ga In. arh! i think i will turn les for her. so hot, so sexy!

i kept my eyes on her throughout the whole mv :)

OOOHHH!

COOL not?

Chio...

arh! her smile...

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nusws is having a performance at esplanade this coming sunday 13 sept, 3-4pm, concert hall. Please come and listen if you are free ok? anyway the performance is free and it is only an hr! :) sigh, we are wearing BORING black-black.

In hope for a neater room

2009-08-29T01:39:00.003+08:00

I love those small containers as much as I like ring-ed note books. Today I went to ps daiso with geri and i bought 2 flat rectangular containers. I love it because they came with many compartments which i can put my beads. Very useful!! I definitely need MORE of those, perhaps another 4 or 5 more. I have categorized the crystals into colours and i'm loving the outlook of it. I did a gay thing though. I cut small squares of bubble wrap to serve as a cushion to those crytals! I'm very fascinated by everything! Containers make things look abit neater :)

I shall be good and hope to CLEAR the rubbish completely in my room soon. Maybe tmr I will do some packing to my room again. I have yet to file my last 2 sem notes properly (bleah!) With 4 big cabinets/cupboards/shelves AND 6 huge opaque containers lying on the floor, my room space is HALVED. I'm not kidding.

I like a white theme and i wished my room had only white cabinets and cupboards. The original built-in cupboards are in beige. Then my parents customized this cupboards-bed-work desk set in white when i was in pri6. Again, when i was year1, my mama customized another set of greyish-white cabinets which fitted from ceilings to floor. I love both of them. Ok, dont be too alarmed. Though I have alot of rubbish, the stuffs inside the cupboards do not ALL belong to me. The cabinets at the top have all our winter wear. And my liking for nice bedsheets has taken up a big amt of space too. How i wished my brown and black extra individual cabinets were white. But mama said the brown matches the parquet flooring. Geri, i also wanna change to white!!!

Do you guys keep your notes? I still have my sec school notes with me. Recently I threw all the GP stuffs away, but I do not know if it was a wise choice. I still keep my chemistry and physics notes, in hope that I MIGHT need them one day, as if! However, I can not find my physics TYS. ARGH! (sorry jeremy!)

I get very frustrated when i see the big mess in my room. Sigh, nvm, tmr my room shall be neater :)

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I cant sleep last night, and i watched big bang theory till 4 plus in the morning. And to make things worse, I was plaqued by short nightmares throughout the entire night. ARH! what's happening to me?

BTW, wanna go geylang serai pasa malam one day tog to walk walk and eat the xiao chi? I love the fried fish crackers :)

2009-08-19T03:10:00.003+08:00

ha! it's the first time i have written so many posts, but they are all in drafts folder. Many of them, at the last min, i decided not to post them up.

dont know why but i feel really sad at this moment. and i dont think is the soapy drama episode that i have just finished watching a min ago.

how i wish life were to be simpler, less complicated problem, less complex relationships, less mind-reading others... but more love please.

sunjar again?

2009-08-12T18:51:00.005+08:00

The tues that has just passed marked the 1st day of school for the undergraduates. All the best for your first sem, little bro... and to the rest of my fellow friends. Just to annoy you guys, i would like to have a shout out "I NEED NOT ATTEND SCHOOL!" *yay* but this doesnt mean i have nothing to do, if you know what i mean.

This post shall be rather random, because I am pretty bored and have plenty of time in my hands. I think I havent shown you guys how my nice sunjar looks like... when it is in the dark. I contemplated to bring it down for the national day celebration or any evening picnic. Ok, it wont brighten up the place but at least it is cool. I absolutely love the name: SUNJAR. As I need total darkness/silence (more or less) to fall asleep, I dont switch it on every night. But on certain boring nights, when i cant fall asleep, i will switch it on... just for the fun of it, to add the wow ambience to my room while slowly admiring it.

And i absolutely love UP once again. I dont mind watching it again.

AW! dont you guys love him? I love this "Time is healing this wound..." HAHA!

Take a look at this...

I like doing scrapbooks and i love it when people make scrapbooks for me. HAHA! But scrapbooking is one of the most time-consuming things to do. I wanted to do one for my canada exchange, but i'm still in the midst of choosing photos to develop. (currently, i am still at NYC... long way to go...) I have really ALOT of photos to choose from. I cant afford to develop every piece. Each piece will cost me like 20cents??

I also want to do another for my holidays, like the recent redang/hk trips. I wonder when i will have the time to do. SIGH! This green book, is my small adventure book. Nothing much inside, just some newspapers articles of places. I really love going to new places and look see look see. I will definitely travel around the world when i am older and more financially stable. HAHA! I went to the bank today... and woah! my bank acct is seeing red. HAHA! this is no good ya! It also means, get started, go look for a job! DAMN! And humans are like that. When you were a student, u complain about school/exams/results. HAHA! But thinking back, maybe being an undergrad now isnt a very bad thing. At least i just need to concentrate on my studies -_-

Movie: UP!

2009-08-07T22:33:00.003+08:00

Oh finally, the long awaited UP movie. Many many thumb ups for it, i simply love the whole movie; be it the story plot, the amazing balloons and the automatic chair(staircase scene), the grouchy 78 year-old fredricksen's love for his wife, russel's cute voice or even the dog with the stupid gay voice but with the meanest body. It is a MUST-WATCH movie. Even as a avid harry potter fan, i must say it is comparable or maybe better than hp (opps!).

But i cant stand some scenes in the movie (not in the bad way). I am not a person who cry very easily, but i cant stand it when i see old people cry/being sad/pinning for their loved ones. I will cry. And damn, i did so, all within the first 15min of the introduction. ARH! The another time was when he flipped the adventure book again. When was the last time i cried while watching a movie? Titanic?

Anyway, I remembered seeing/reading something similar to what Ellie has written for Carl somewhere before. It was "Thankyou _____. You have given me the adventure of my life." I forgotten where though. I found these words really very touching. And to be able to grow old with someone you love, i think it is more than what anyone could ask for. I wish to travel around the world and experience the wonderful marvelous stuffs with my loved one.

There are many other scenes which i found funny! Like, the dog with the gay voice appeared. Totally what weeks had imagined. -_- i really wanted to "faint". Whenever that dog spoke, I kept laughing! And i was waiting for russel to make his first appearance! "Good Afternoon, my name is russel." and the part he said "Can I come in now?" Ok, last spoiler, hall of shame for dogs is actually the cone/Elizabethan collar (found on net). So creative!!!

Disney pixar 10th animated film and it totally scored! Ok some images found on the official site of UP.

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ok i need 1.2 for my wallet. -_- burn hole in pocket before i can even put cash inside it.

Up Up and Away!

2009-08-04T23:59:00.002+08:00

YAY! finally it is here! I am going to watch it on friday!!! Should we make advanced booking??? UP UP UP!

2009-08-04T22:48:00.002+08:00

" Time is the most valuable currency you can spend on your family. "

I found this quote on this week 8Days and it definitely struck a chord in my heart. I paused and thought for a while. What have I been doing for the past 3 months leh?

Job Searching - Not fruitful at all! I seemed to be a slacker!!! haha just searched for ONE and was unsuccessful in my application :( then I put on a hold. Actually everything was gg as planned. If i didnt get that, i will rest till end of july, which is very true.

But I feel very rejuvenated! I think the past 3 months has been a good rest. Even though I have been going out very often, there is no stress/pressure of backlogs/due homework & assignments. I am happy that I am doing things that I love, like spending more time with family and friends, as well as to play in the band.

I am glad I have spent some time with my parents. Simple lunch/dinner could make them feel happy. I know my dad loves the food at Chinatown hawker centre. But because of me, my mum would always suggest eating at "nearby" places so that I can go home "earlier" to rest. But that saturday, i told my dad to go anywhere he wants to go to have dinner, because i have the time. And i guessed it correctly, we went to chinatown and had hainanese chicken rice at his favourite stall. Even though he queued for half hr, when he came back with that tray of food, happiness was written all over his face. As for my mum, good time spent together include going parkway for lunch and then to Giant to get groceries (free parking for 2 hrs on weekdays if you spend $50 and above), bringing her to new shoppping malls: Tampines One and Orchard ION.

Last sunday, we went to mandai to pray and i always get some morbid thoughts when i am there. Sometimes i really hate myself for answering and snapping back at my mum for the stupidest reasons and slightest things. And I always regret my actions, just mere seconds later. I dont want to grow up le. I want things to remain just like that. I dont want any growing up because it will eventually lead to death. Treasure your loved ones....

This holidays have been fantastic as I spend alot of time with my good friends as well. Impromtu meeting ups, random chilling out sessions at DOME, checking out some good eating deals and going on a short getaway trips... i'm loving it!!!

Remaining time left, I just nua at home some days, and whenever i have the mood, i will pack my room. Yes, my room is really very very untidy for a girl. Not that everything is out of place, it is just very messy. I have books and papers occupying every shelf. And my study table is stacked with my last sem worksheets. The only clear area i have is my computer table. I am a garung guni girl, i keep everything. I still have my pri sch stuffs in my balcony, my sec sch notes at my stairway, and my jc stuffs on the shelves. The uni notes are at the other cupboard. ARH! I always think one fine day, i will NEED them. But in actual fact, stuffs which you didnt touch for the past year, you dont need them, chuck them away!

So, i found some motivation to pack my room. For these 3 mths, i have packed my room 3 times and each time, i threw away more than 10 big plastic bags of "rubbish" but, let me tell you, MY ROOM STILL LOOKS THE SAME! Why is that so?? :( But of course, my study table is cleared, my notes is very much neater in arranged order and is of a more pleasant sight la. I finally threw away my GP stuffs because i reckon news is new everyday. So no point keeping those newspaper articles. I wonder if i should throw away chem and phy stuffs because i wont be studying them ever again. I threw away many rubbish stuffs and arranged my collection of postcards again. I used to collect postcards... until uni year2. Because i think it is taking up space. HAHA! But luckily, my hobby managed to make a person happy. I kept 2 of each design i collect and i found extras of Miss Saigon postcards (super long ago la!). The law guy in my section was feeling upset over his pupilage, so i gave him the extras and he was really very happy. Good!

I still have alot alot alot alot alot to pack for my room and i really hope to do so soon! I have this cupboard which i refused to pack that day. Because i know if i have done so, it would take me more than 2 hrs. And my wardrobe needs to be packed. Alot of clothes need to be given/thrown away, because i cant fit into them already. Yar, i grew fatter. But i will keep those OP tees, can wear at home :) I have loads of orientation tshirts too... but i always find the material is abit thick and uncomfortable. My home clothes is the most comfortable clothes ever... comprising of my mahjong pants which some have seen. GOSH!

So much things to do, so little time left.

cheryl lim flute!

2009-08-03T23:37:00.002+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_0mUskTym0U

Cheryl Lim, YST flute major grad. Playing "Piazzolla - Histoire du Tango (Night-Club 1960)"

I found this link some time back, during last sem examination period. And i really liked this tango song and was deeply mesmerized by her playing. Loved her vibrato and powerful low notes. Now, I am listening to it again, totally suit my current emo mood.

Another of my fav...

Beautiful Seed - Corrinne May

I can fill the darkness with just one flash of light

Break the the silence with just one word

Warm the fire-started revolution

One that can save the world

On the steps of Washington sprinkled like confetti

Thousands of people sing "We shall overcome"

The preacher shouts: "Let freedom ring"

He gave his life for what he believed

You can be a witness You can be a prophet

You can make the whole world believe

Break the strongest fortress

Change the way the world thinks

You can build a bridge where foes can meet

Hope for the future

Shout it, don't whisper dreams are what make them to be

There is hope in every heartbeat

Tiny as it seems

You're a beautiful seed

She's a pastor's daughter

She's only 16

But her heart and her belly are breaking at the seams

Her boyfriend blames her

He want to pay for the doctor to wash it away

As she lays in the hospital

A Christmas choir is singing

About a child in a manger fragile and small

"Unto us is born a Savior"

She looks at her baby and cries as she sings him a lullaby

Every hope, every power lies in the heart of a seed that flowers

Intertwined all across the land

We're all seeds in the maker's hand

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I guess I shall procrastinate abit longer and push my job-seeking agenda back another week. HAHA! might as well, the undergrads are gg to start school next week anyway. So if wanna go out with them, have to do it by this week le :( After that, only geri, huixian, pong yafen will be free to accompany me.

This week seems busy. Today supposed to go Haji Lane with yaling as both of us wanted to check out that place. But she is down with body aches and sorethroat and bouts of cold/flu. Please arh, get well soon. If not, we cant go out le. Your dance rehearsals and lab sessions will take up all your remaining time. So, went out with geri and weeks. Weeks needed to run some errands like bringing his phone for repairs and have a haircut.

And the whole day, i seemed to be eating non-stop. HAHA! We had crystal jade for lunch and i am gg to order that "aloe vera + osmanthus+ honey" dessert. I thought it was going to be a drink. But it is very sweet and refreshing :) i like it! After that, geri finally got to satisfy her craving of durian pancakes. HAHA! i didnt know the durian filling was gg to be cold! The pancake was made on the spot which is good. So, the cold durian paste filling is wrapped with the hot pancake.

Have you guys eaten Churros before? I love it! I remembered the first time i tasted it was in disneyland :) with my family. Freezing cold, but held a piping hot churros... i like the warm fuzzy feeling. Plus it is coated with cinnamon sugar which is my favourite. (Actually, it is very similar to Auntie Anne's pretzels.) Everytime i walk past the shop at basement1, i have the urge to buy but i resisted each time. Today i just gave in to my craving.

After weeks did all his stuffs (sending hp for repairs and a getting new birdy/old gay haircut), we decided to sit down and chill. Bakerinz is a nice place for good desserts :) I always love their Sweet Pleasure and Choco A'more cakes. Now August promotion, they are having 50% off their desserts (not cakes though). Warm chocolate cake and profiteroles are quite good. I shall try the others next time.

But i think i ate too much "cold stuffs" today, which resulted to me having some "cold cough". I shall stick to hot soupy stuffs tmr then :(

back from redang and kl

2009-07-31T17:56:00.003+08:00

ok i will update about redang+ KL trip soon. I really enjoyed myself at redang. We did afew water activities like snokelling, canoeing and riding on banana boat. btw, is feeding the fishes counted? I saw corals and many different species of fish! Can you believe it?? POMFRETs swimming around you!!! They are the cutest (and delicious) fishes. I am sorry that I ate countless of your kind :)

Snokelling was such an experience and I think my parents would be quite thrilled to try it out. I think it is a safe activity for people of all ages. But definitely not the banana boat. my goodness. I was really quite scared when we heard the guide saying, please let go if you think you are going to capsize. If not, you will break your arm. My ex colleague broke her arm before, while arm wrestling and it was no joke. Healing back those bones is extremely painful. But the banana boat ride really pump up our adrenaline! Definitely not for the old and faint hearted. It is quite dangerous. You are literally "flung" out of your seat. After the first try, i was quite skeptical to continue. But heck it, it was uber exciting and i had fun screaming!

I am quite scared of fishes. Yar, actually im scared of most living creatures, such as birds, moths, butterflies, dragonflies (all the flying creatures) and scaly counterparts. So when zhenghong threw me that piece of bread and all the fishes swam towards me, that's it. I was scared and started screaming. -_- such a wuss. But at the end of day2, i began to have a love-hate relationship with the fishes. Maybe because the fishes at the beach is very timid and i had an enjoyable time feeding them with stale bread. but i still heart those stupid looking pomfrets.

I would love to go back to Redang again, and we should go to other pulaus as well, such as tioman, langkawi etc.

Although KL is not as exciting as Redang, we had our bit of fun share. I (yar, only me) had my KL BLACK hokkien mee craving satisfied (not the best, but im still happy). We had really cheap and affordable food in KL (dollar for dollar, WOW!). We had krispy kreme (not up to expectations) and surf the net in the store. We went Zouk to have a taste of "overseas clubbing scene". Although shopping is disappointing, I think most of the stuffs are cheaper than in singapore. Actually I didnt mind going KL at all, i just like to go for a short getaway (to anywhere). But if i were to choose where to LIVE in, singapore will still be my top choice. I cant stand the traffic conditions, the insecurity i feel and many more. I had to keep a close eye of my belongings at all times. And the drivers there are totally "bo cheng hu".

To sum it all, the trip was GREAT! Another PLUS point, it is that i dont need to use my brains. (i sound so stupid right?) Yep, everything was planned by ben and we just have to ask him, where are we going today? what are we going to eat for lunch/dinner? what are we doing today? Arh, i love it man! That's why I would always prefer a tour group rather than free and easy trip for countries i have never been to. I am very amazed by the fact that he actually went online to search for discount coupons (OMG!), thus earning him the nick of "lin sao". That's not all, to get to midvalley shopping centre, he found out that we could actually go to this hotel opposite our concorde hotel and take THEIR free shutter bus service to the shopping centre. Simply amazing!

I did some shopping :) bought 1 top from mooks, 2 tops from zara, 1 sweater from (arh i forgot the name!), 2 pairs of shoes from vincci and 1 pair from bata. No bottoms or bags though. But no more shopping le. Except for the g2000 clothes which i will be getting this sat, for work!

I need to get a new wallet. And i saw a couple of nice ones!

French purse in raspberry, super chio

Zippy Coin Purse in Rose Pop. I nearly gotten this for myself some time ago. I resisted. But it looks super chic right?

I like my wallet to be like this style. The compartments and the zip coin compartment.

I havent done anything to reward myself :( maybe i should lose that 7kg huh? That's how much i need to lose to be deemed fit, according to that fitness instructor. -_- i think the probability of me getting the wallet is higher than the probability of me losing that amt of fats in my body, in the same time frame.

*Photos taken from LV and Tod's websites*

PI YE LOH!

2009-07-14T00:02:00.003+08:00

HELLO!! ok i will post photos of my graduation soon ok! Finally, today i got the charger and cable from alice, so I'm charging the camera now.

Tmr i need to go parkway to run some errands.

1) Buy exam papers for my tutee. Is it still "illegal" to buy from those pushcart vendors? Dont know leh, during my time I remembered it was and difficult to buy from ouside. But last week, i went to Bras Basah and i saw so many stores selling exam papers!! gosh! and i became one of the kiasu parents, looking through the whole pile. However, the "good sch" papers are not on the list. In the end, I didnt buy any even though there was 20% discount.

2) Buy screen protector for my n97. My hp is too chio liao. I love it! HAHA! and i need to get a screen protector soon before my nails scratch the screen. AH. Dont go to VIVO basement 1 (near to breadtalk) to get screen protector. That aunty totally suck man. I think the ah bengs at the 2nd hand store do a better job than her loh!

3) Develop some photos! Yep, develop some graduation photos and maybe some of my exchange photos! I sorted out some, but the amt is killing me la. I can never do a scrapbook for it. it is impossible! And i need to buy one more roll of film (for my waterproof camera :)

Yar, that's about all i need to do in parkway tmr. I shall have char siew rice tmr for lunch. My mum made some charsiew for dinner today and she kept some for me for lunch tmr, as i didnt have dinner at home today. For the whole week, except sat (or even fri), i dont think i am gg to have home cooked dinner :( haha homemade charsiew is DAMN nice, because of the sauce and fats. If eat outside, usually i will choose roasted pork or duck. Because my mum doesnt know how to make those. HAHA!

This week will be a "serious band week". haha, only 5 more prac and it is fiesta in the gardens liao. And today, after so many weeks of no prac, i felt like im sight reading the scores again. but still manageable la. quite excited over fiesta because it has been AGES since the last time i played in botanical gardens. I guess this will most prob be the last time. But arh! why cant we wear polo and jeans instead? attire on sunday is black black. I am going to melt into puddle of oil. Please dont rain, and hope it will be a cool day :) pls come down to support!

The long awaited Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince movie is finally COMING OUT! arh, from last summer till now, gosh! I am speed reading the book now, and i realised i missed out so many details!! shit! i need to finish it before thurs. Thanks ben for booking! I am going to watch Harry Potter on premier day :) shiok-a-doodle!!!! That's what i always wanted.

(btw, my twilight read, it is nearly hopeless sia. i get so sian over the forbidden love)

Then gonna have good food this week. Dim sum buffet on fri. I hope it will be good. Sometimes, dim sum can be quite jelat and i get quite ni of it. I want to go to kushinbo buffet la. the crabs :(and maybe xiaolongbao buffet too!! this time i wont eat so much of the steamboat!!!

I got my first tuition pay today! hurray. Small amt but still quite happy about it. And i think i have already "spent" all the money, but still, im happy. Maybe i should get another student huh? if only i had the time la. I need to look for a PROPER JOB soon. My sis is worried for me. And how she showed it? She put the today news classified ad " JOBS FOR FRESH GRADS" on my computer table. Thanks jie... but i know la. Dont worry ok?

Next week is redang + KL trip le. time really flies. Come back, rest for another week and job hunting liao! I think the trip will be fun! although i gave up on my exercise regime, i shall try to cut down on my late night snacks. But these few days, i am craving for sweet stuffs! Last night, at 1230am leh, i made myself the SUPER honey crysanthemum tea. Is it something wrong with me? Anyway, need to go supermarket before redang trip. to stock up on snacks and chips to munch!!!

oK, that's abt all... till then!

2009-07-05T17:28:00.002+08:00

As you guys know, my old n73 is abit faulty. I can still use it, except that

1) The battery life is really very weak
a) I cant take more than 5 calls, assuming each call lasts only 5 minutes
b) I need to remember to charge it every night

2) My sms ringtone is non-existence
a) Sometimes I reply you like an hour later? Or maybe later than that

3) Phone memory is low
a) But this problem, no matter how many photos i deleted or clearing my inbox, the phone will just hang, very annoying!

So, I switched back to my OLD phone for the time being. I am so glad it is still working in good condition. But it is just for the time being. I need to find a new phone. I can be quite fussy over phones... because a tech idiot like me doesnt like changes. I would very much prefer a candy bar nokia phone. Because i think i wouldnt get used to other brands. HAHA! Actually i saw a few samsung phones that are really cool.

Ok, so i thought i found a suitable phone : iPhone!

Since i need a new phone as well as mp3, it is wise that i should get the iPhone! But then, i cant get the iPhone phone by itself. Damn! I need to buy it with the plan. ARH! I dont wish to change my phone plan anytime for now... so iPhone is out :( btw, i tried typing a very simple message and i failed very terrible. MANY mis-spelled words and the qwerty keyboard on the touchscreen needs some time to get used to.

So i went on searching for "better" phones.

Alas, i found some. What do you guys think?

Top choice of mine:

Nokia N97

Quite nice right? It's in white, 5 mega pixels cam, big screen, touchscreen plus qwerty. I think there is WIFI, 32GB internal memory plus 16GB memory card, 3mths free GPRS.

2nd choice:

Samsung Omnia in White.

Yep, there is one in white. New one! WOOHOO! It also has 5 megapixels cam, confirmed WIFI, only 8GB internal memory with 8GB memory card and touchscreen.

So how? Which one? Ok if nokia has confirmed WIFI then i would most probably get that one. Any more recommendations?

2009-06-17T01:43:00.002+08:00

let me stay in hongkong for a while, to enjoy the tvb culture. though the pace of life is really fast there, i really like it there. maybe a cheaper alternative is to migrate to hk instead of canada.

atc no more

2009-06-13T01:35:00.002+08:00

120609. i thought it would just be like any other day. no, i received the letter, i didnt make the cut. of course i am disappointed. but i will be all right. a small setback like this will not take me down. i just have to search again, and harder this time. wish me luck ya?

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I have been watching this tvb period drama these days and i must say it is good. It's about the pugilistic world, the detective-mystery kind of show. i love the olden days martial arts shows, they always come out with really long chinese chem chem names for their kungfu. haha. and with the now technology, the martial arts displays are really nice to watch. Plus, all the actors in the shows are those i like :) lam fung is really that shuai!

everytime i watch this kungfu period time drama, i always wonder whether in my past lives, do i know kungfu? Maybe some qing gong? haha! really funny huh? if yes, i hope i have some mean kungfu like in those shows. Just anyhow throw a pebble or needle and can attack someone liao.

The real shaolin temple still exists in china, do you think they practice such kungfu like qing gong? Or maybe some ulu part of the world, there is someone who knows these kind of kungfu? maybe huh?

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i have to watch my spending already, since i'm jobless and i cannot just "sheng shou yao qian". Plus, i cant help but bought some beads today. that will be 34 bucks. Wells, no more shopping for now. yep, no more.

Although i'm jobless for now, i believe it wont be long before i find a job. And it wont be a anyhow-find-job. Dont worry. Jobless but i'm occupied with band. That makes my life fulfilling too, though i earn no money from it. Life is like that, it's not just about money. There should be many other things that make up your life, for example, your hobbies and interests (yes, not forgetting family and friends). A job is another component.

I tried not to sigh already, but i cant help it. I may have chosen a wrong tertiary education path, but i cant choose a wrong job. I cant help but to worry. I am scared. What if i choose wrongly? i really need time to consider, reconsider and re-reconsider.

2009-06-10T00:27:00.002+08:00

sorry. sorry to those who experienced my sian mood. please please bear with me ok? i also dont know what's wrong with me. And, nothing happened! That's why i think i'm fine.

Maybe it could be the transition; from undergraduate to soon-to-be working adult.

Sigh, i dont know what the hell is wrong. I am very angry with myself too. And im really thankful for the bunch of friends whom i have and i know i can always count on them.

i hope everything will just work out fine at the end of the day.

My Redeemer Lives

2009-05-23T23:48:00.003+08:00

I chanced upon this. And it is one of the most touching stories I have ever "heard".

A son says to his father: 'Dad, would you be willingly to run a marathon with me?'

The father, despite his age and a heart disease, says 'YES'.
And they run that marathon, together.

The son asks: 'Dad, can you run another marathon with me?' Again father says 'YES'.
They run another marathon, together.

One day the son asks his father: 'Dad, would please do the Iron Man with me?'

Now just in case you wouldn't know, 'The Iron Man' is the toughest triathlon in existence:4km swimming, then 180 km by bike, and finally another 42 km running, in one stroke.
Again father says 'YES'

Not touching huh?

Team Hoyt is a father-son team who has taken part in triathlons, marathons and many other races. Father and Son racing together is not uncommon. The father, Dick is already 69 this year, while the son, Rick has celeral palsy. How do they compete in races together?

The touching thing is: Dick pulls him in a special boat as they swim, carries him in a special seat up front as they bike, and pushes him in a special wheelchair as they run.

Marathon/triathlon or even simple running exercise is already no easy feat for a person who suffers from heart disease. And what's more, the father has to use extra strength to pull/push the son.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VJMbk9dtpdY

From the net, I found this out.

When asked what one thing Rick wished he could give his father, his reply was "The thing I'd most like is that my dad would sit in the chair and I would push him once."

Super touching. I cried.
That is why people always say, parents will do and sacrifice everything for their kids, because of love. This is the wei da fatherly love. The dad did all these because he loves his son.

Doesnt this video give you strength? It did for me.

My Redeemer Lives - By Nicole Mullen C

Who taught the sun where to stand in the morning?
And who told the ocean you can only come this far?
And who showed the moon where to hide till evening?
who's words alone can catch a falling star?

Well I know my redeemer lives
I know my redeemer lives
All of creation testifies
this life within me cries
I know my redeemer lives

ye-e-eahThe very same God
who spins things in orbit
runs to the weary, the worn and the weak
and the same gentle hands that hold me when I'm broken
they conquered death to bring me victory

Now I know, my redeemer lives
I know my redeemer lives
let all creation testify
that this life within me cries
I-I-I knowmy redeemer

He lives
to take away my shame
and he lives
forever I'll proclaim
the amount of pain that bought my sin
was the precious life He gave
and now he's alive and
there's an emptygrave!

And I know
my redeemer lives
I know
my redeemer lives
let all creation testify
that this life within me cries

I-I-I know my redeemer
I know my redeemer lives
I know my redeemer lives
I know my redeemer lives
He lives
He lives
*I spoke with him this morning!
*He lives
*I'm gonna tell everybody

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Seriously, nothing is impossible. You just have to set your heart to do it.

2009-05-23T01:59:00.002+08:00

It has been 4 days ever since I sent in my application but I have yet to receive a call from the HR dept. Of course I feel scared. It has been quite some time since I really wanted something. The last time was the summer exchange program which I wanted to go.

As the chinese saying goes, "xi wang yue gao, shi wang yue da". So true aint it?

I know it is not going to be easy. I have never said it is easy. I am so aware of my own limitations, weak points and abilities. The more information I learnt about it, the more worried and fearful i get. Then why am I still continuing? Why dont I just go apply some others? It makes no sense!

But I really want to do it, for now. I may not know everything about it, the perks and the downs are still blurred. I am still going to go ahead. I dont wish to regret for not even trying. I may seemed to be alittle ambitious. A minimum A levels is able to get me to go down for the test. But why isnt there a single call? I cant help but to feel paranoid. I dont wish to apply to any job. I made a mistake when applying for a university course and I seriously dont wish that to happen to my future. If you have undergone what I went through this 3 years, you will understand. It totally suck to study something you have no interest in.

Pray for me ya? I seriously hope everything will turn out fine eventually :)

2009-05-23T01:58:00.000+08:00

i shall skip this because it is the 444th post!

2009-05-22T02:05:00.002+08:00

love this song

From This Moment - Shania Twain

from this moment life has begun
from this moment you are the one
right beside you is where i belong
from this moment on

from this moment i have been blessed
i live only for your happiness
and for your love i'd give my last breath
from this moment on

i give my hand to you with all my heart
can't wait to live my life with you can't wait to start
you and i will never be apart
my dreams came true because of you

from this moment as long as i live
i will love you, i promise you this
there is nothing i wouldn't give
from this moment on

you're the reason i believe in love
and you're the answer to my prayers from up above
all we need is just the two of us
my dreams came true because of you

from this moment as long as i live
i will love you, i promise you this
there is nothing i wouldn't give

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I love her rendition of "Somewhere Over The Rainbow". Katharine McPhee is so chio la. And i like that pink gown she wore... woah!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vmm2_rnl14I

2009-05-22T01:07:00.003+08:00

this is for geri. CONGRATULATIONS! you passed yr examinations and YAY it is for real, you ARE graduating!!! WHEE!!! cant wait to go for your convocation/commencement :):):) proud of you!!!

when is mine? 29may 1pm. PLEASE everyone, pray for michelle. I NEED TO GRADUATE and hopefully i will get my minor. IF i dont get my minor, i will be freaking sad. my lousy results are due to that 6 bloody minor modules.

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band prac today, and i enjoyed playing those "video-games" pieces :) playing 1st flute with the law guy again, but i pushed all the solos to him :) that makes my job much easier :) weekiat and geri, we are playing "hey jude". so everyone, come support me ok, at ECP on 28june! see you there! *i hate those spider mics, there will be 15-20 of them above us!*

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I think too much, most of the time. And i was proven right. I lost once again. And now, I really hate to dream, because dreams are deceiving.

eventful may

2009-05-16T23:03:00.003+08:00

I've been wondering why I am not blogging that much and that often anymore. Something must have happened. And I have an idea what it is. But I just hate to admit it. Let me get over it, get my thoughts right and straight again... give me some time.

As May is coming to an end, many other stuffs/events have happened in this month. Eventful month I must say.

First of all, michelle has unofficially graduated! YEAH!!! Haha, my final semester is over. No more studying, eh, for quite some time at least! I should and will be able to graduate, I just need two module to graduate; einstein module and my one and only stats core this semester, these 2 modules I suppose I did fine :) But, I guessed I wont be able to get my minor. I didnt do well for my financial math paper which was a hefty 60% weightage :( PLEASE PLEASE pray for me that i will pass my 2 minor core modules! even if it is a D, i will get my minor! I really hope I will get it.

Secondly, as you guys know, my new zealand grad trip was cancelled. Let's not talk about it le.

Thirdly, I am REALLY enjoying my freedom, my holidays right now. Going for The Line buffet, going out without having to worry about schoolwork/project deadlines/fetching-my-sis-to-work and i can simply relax and watch as MANY hk dramas as I want. And not forgetting the band practices. I really look forward to each one of them. HOORAY!!! I am having so much fun that I am sort of losing the motivation to look for a job. Ok all thanks to jeremy's nick and it got me started on my CV. thanks so much! Although I'm still writing, at least I'm making the effort. I hope I can enjoy life for awhile more.... like say till end of July? Haha but I know that's quite impossible. If.... if michelle is still jobless till end of july... please ask her to hurry up find a job. Before that, let me enjoy first ok? :)

The last matter, I think i have sorted out. Thanks yafen, i know you will give me some sound advice. And I know I will definitely come to a conclusion after talking to you. Everytime I meet a very very sticky situation, once i talk to her, i will be clear minded. Thankyou :)

Oh yeah, something i wished to say quite some time ago. Michelle is beginning to let go of the past :) like chey, must think so long meh? haha! but michelle is also letting go some fragments of the present...

2009-05-02T14:56:00.002+08:00

the more i think about it, the angrier i get.

parents!

yar, maybe i wont understand until i become a parent myself.

i feel so angry and sad! really very sad. FRUSTRATING!

you can not make up for it, because you have no idea how much this trip meant to us. you really have no idea. it's not just for play. it is a graduation trip hello?!

i feel so bad, i have never felt so bad to someone in my life before.

i dont think sorry cant do the job this time. but other than that, i dont know what to say.

stupid stupid stupid and stupid. plain stupid. just stupid la.

no amount of crying can make me feel better.

2009-04-22T01:19:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY MICHELLE!

somehow, i feel loved :)

2009-03-31T22:15:00.002+08:00

mich is easily contented :):):)

but secretly she does want much more.

how?

i wished we could drive up to some place with only the both of us. you shall play and i shall listen :)

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Although tmr is april's fool, i wish there is no joke when it comes to syf. Tmr is tkgs' turn! It is the biannual competition and it seems that i am still "updated" in the band scene. I will not forget the pre-actual-post syf periods, hours of hardcore practising, those joy and tears....
these memories will definitely be staying with me. I want to get back that tone I used to have during tk days. But without regular practises, it is almost impossible. I wish tkgssb all the best and really do hope they will come back with a Gold with Honours :) they are the best in my eyes.

Ter Ho recorded the announcement of results for tj. So each time i play recordings of our set and choice piece, I get to hear the results soundclip too (i named it under the same artist in the same file). It never fails to bring a big smile to my face.

"Band number 15.... Band number 15 Temasek Junior College.....*super long pause* Gold with Honours." ***LOUDLOUDLOUD SCREAMS!*

I miss tk and hope to go back to visit soon. Haha, is it very ironic? Due to the fact that i stay OPPOSITE tk -_- but I need pple to go with me. After exams anyone?

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2 projects due VERY soon and another midterm coming up. But mich is still quite slack about it. Actually no, i am not slack about it, i just feel super sian to do it. Not that i havent written a word, I have done part of it, but i cant find the motivation to sit down and finish it. And both are not easy to start off with. I thought the report will be at most 10 pages. (maybe 5 pages would be good enough) till i talked to my prc friend.

He said, "Orh, i did that module before. The project was rather easy, i did 15 pages which was considered very little because some of my friends did 30-50 pages."

WTHWTHWTHWTHWTH!

And the freaking project is just 20%.

Please enlighten mich how to write a report on BONDS/STOCKS/FORWARD RATE/LIBOR RATES for at least 30 pages. I will buy you tea.

If you help me do half of the project, i will buy you a sumptuous dinner.
If you help me complete the whole project with A grade standard, anything you ask for. (HAHA!)

I need that A grade standard project to salvage my CUI test.

whatever la. I need motivation. FROM YOU!

2009-03-29T00:16:00.003+08:00

I must brush up on my english language. I should go take some English grammar courses by British Council (since it's not that far away... off orchard). And I have to start reading more.

And Michelle wants to continue taking part in CCS 2010, therefore she has to know more world politics, local politics as well as those crazy stuffs that are happening in other parts of the world right now. I have to start going to cnn and bbc news website for their daily articles.

I have to do these right after the exams. It is for my own good, as well as preparation for interviews. Ok, dont have to ask me about interviews and finding for jobs. I guess I am not in the mood/no time/no energy to think about jobs right now. The most important thing on my mind is currently the finals exams: 25, 28, 29 apr.

Yeah I know my exams end VERY early this time. Envious? Dont have to be, i wished i could end later so that I could have more time to study.

I know i havent blog about the nusws concert and many other events that had happened.

InTempo was one of the best concerts i had. I was high the whole night. MANY THANKS THANKS THANKS to those who had came to support :) you guys know who you are. A very big thankyou :) it just FEELS good to know that your friends are there to support you (even though they could see you faking some running notes. I totally didnt like my seat!)

2009-03-27T01:05:00.001+08:00

i cant blog anymore :(

2009-03-19T01:02:00.003+08:00

Concert in 3 days :)

I totally love love love "Hymn To The Infinite Skies" by Satoshi Yagisawa. Very typical japanese piece, nice melodious moving lines. From the flute solo at the beginning, it has that strong flavour already. Sounds super japanese too. Please pardon me, I dont know how to describe that sound nor feel. Must come down to hear it YOURSELF! Seeing cum hearing are believing! I love that piece, my favourite for the whole concert :)

Flute soloist is very pro. Watch out for him!!!!!

2009-03-15T23:53:00.002+08:00

I'm so dead.

I dont know him well in person. But after the day that I stumpled upon his blog, I fell in love. With him? Perhaps with his way and style of writing, his views and opinions on certain matters and the "flowery" language used. I have spent that day reading many of his posts and through his writing/words used, it seems like I am beginning to know him better. But I want more, I want to know him better, I want to talk more to him, I want to be friends with him.

I know it is totally absurb! Can this really happen? How can this happen? Can a person's character be shown and expressed through his writings? Can a person be judged by his writings? How can I know a person through just word text? And, am I being ridiculous and crazy to fall in love with someone just based on his writings?

He's smart, well-read, hardworking, talented, passionate and a big lame joker at times.

Haha, let me dream alittle. Let me fall in love with this guy. Dont bother asking me who though...

2009-03-14T21:28:00.002+08:00

I am setting a bad example.

I "go" around asking people to come for my nus concert. (Before i go on, i wanna say THANKYOU to those who are coming, u know who u are :) ) Then, I didnt go for friends' concert :( for example: orchestra concert! How can?

Many a times (like now) i do wanna give a slap to my forehead! If only I know how to manage my time properly. I guessed I have mentioned before. One of my very good friends told me, "It is about time management, you have the time..." It knocked some sense into me and up till today, i could remember what she had said. Those who have time are those who manage their time WELL.

Do you have time? Please teach me how to manage my time? Maybe it is more about priortizing, be it my school work, commitments, sleeping, tv-time, internet time, self-time and others. And, it is really recently I started saying no to certain stuffs/events/outings and I really do feel bad each time.

Luckily, I said yes to xiujuan about helping out in openhouse'09. I know i wont have the chance to help out at any more school events, and this time, I will be at my own faculty booth, promoting how good science fac is and what are the opportunities out there for our prospective students :) so, if you all HAVE TIME, do come down for openhouse to get goodie bags and VISIT ME!

Perhaps, it is why i like/prefer shift work. Because of the relatively disgusting timing of the shifts, it forces to plan your time more carefully and use it wisely. In the end, maybe you could do more things. I do feel this way la. haha, yesterday i was chatting with a friend. Shift work to him is about unpredictibility. No "stability"and will wear you out. But routine can be such a bore!

Stop dreamin', and start working.

Haha good tagline? Go go go jiayou with me. It is less than one month time to final exams. Freaked out soon!

I am in a orange mood

2009-03-12T00:13:00.002+08:00

I look forward to wednesdays. WOOHOO = wednesday, friday, saturday, sunday :)

1) no band (ha!) <--- i am beginning to like my section and sectionals. A tad late huh?
2) late classes 7-10pm only <---- i think that louu jiann hua teaches quite well and usually injects in some humor during lessons. This is crucial, because it is VERY hard to concentrate 3hrs late at night.
3) ONE AND ONLY LESSON FOR THE DAY! and my thursday starts at 4pm. Actually quite shiok hor?

But I am beginning to dislike (going to hate soon) friday school day. WHY must we attend school on friday? Friday should be such a relaxing cum happy day as weekend is HERE! I shouldnt be complaining as i have only 2 tutorials and 1 lecture on friday. (12-4pm SQUEEZED). And mich declared, im starting to think "Einstein's Theory" module isnt that fun and interesting afterall. PHIL!!!!!!! why am i not interested in your module? How can this be?

I think the only way to save myself as im losing a large amt of interest in that module is to go for serious STAR GAZING! And maybe need more motivation. And i gotten back the midterm (20%) - only managed to get B :(

Big St3241 test on friday, thus I'm skipping band prac on thursday. No choice, that module is very very very very important! crap, and i feel not very prepared for it :(

As xinyi the geek asked if she could trade smileys with mr sad, is it? I wished too! Mr Sad, do get some smileys from me, ok?

This post is very random. Ok, another random thing is tat, i like that Xin Shi Hui's 我知道我变漂亮了. SO NICE!! I am too lazy to post the lyrics..another time bah. Meanwhile, it shall stay on my stereo for a while more :) haha yes, i have the habit of putting currect faves on repeat mode.

glow brick!

2009-03-11T00:11:00.003+08:00

I WANT TO GET THESE!!!!!!!

I always have this liking for glow-in-the-dark stuffs. I wonder what is it inside that make it glow? Must be some "special" chemical right? When I was young, i used to trade those fluffy/furry stickers with my friends' "glow-in-the-dark" ones. And i am STILL looking for the glow-in-the-dark dice, those you see hanging from any ah beng's car. YES! those dice! Who knows where to get them from?? My friend told me the shops no longer sell them :(:(:( i really want...

This is the glow brick. Seh not? Should i get it? bloody ex though

Which one nicer???????? They are called sun jar. SO CUTE right? very expensive too.... but i likeeee....very cute leh.

2009-03-03T00:12:00.003+08:00

You know you are feeling damn tired when

1) you dont care about any carbon monoxide poisoning just to take a short nap in the car

2) you dont bother if any image was lost while sleeping in the car in the nus open carpark

3) you can actually steal a 20min nap before lecture starts at 4pm

4) you wanna head back home with your friends but to realise your day has just started (mon lessons 4-10PM)

5) you cant absorb anything and just waiting for the lecturer to end his lesson

6) you sleep in dr phil's lesson (HOW CAN!!!)

You know you are feeling UBER tired and just wanna go home and sleep when

7) you dont care about the 90kmh speed limit on aye or 70kmh on ecp and just speeded all the way home

8) you flash the high beam at every slow car in front of you

9) you change to any possible lane that could lead you back home fastest

10) i cant think of the 10th reason

*** yar i know, dangerous driving is still banned for michelle because of that day. today wasnt a fantastic one... plus i was uncontactable the whole day. Absent minded me left my hp at home!! and i couldnt find lunch khakis :(

nz trip confirmed!

2009-03-01T19:14:00.002+08:00

WHEE! My graduation trip is confirmed! 8 Days to South New Zealand! yes i know it is quite a short trip instead of usual ideal 3 weeks to Europe. I shall make up for it by making a point to travel at least once a year when I start working and earning money.

I think this Chan Brother's tour package is one of the best deals I could get at the Natas travel fair. Total S$2580. With expenditure, i'm sure it would be under our budget! Geri and I will be leaving on 3May-10May on SQ *yay!!!* Although it is not on A380 airbus (dynasty agency offered that), the 7 series should be good enough? Oh yar, both of us wanna enjoy the SQ flight so we were quite :) when we heard it was a 10-hr journey.

A night of farmstay is included (instead of Earth-Sky Star Gazing Night, haha!)

I would be expecting to see this

Mount Cook

and this

Milford Sound

My exams end on 29apr and 3 May we are flying off. Might seemed rushed but i need to come back early to find a job!

Oh yar, was surfing someone's blog and i saw this.

Chinese -->Maybe Singaporean (red) VS Westerner (blue)

B: Contact to related person only
R: Contact everyone everywhere, business very successful.

B: Enjoy weekend relaxing peacefully.
R: Enjoy weekend in crowded places, like going to the mall.

B: Love sightseeing and enjoy the scenery.
R: Taking picture is the most important, scenery is just for the background.

B: Queuing in an orderly manner
R: Queuing?! What’s that?

B: Talk to the point
R: Talk around the circle, especially if different opinions

Anyway, this is so biased!!!!

star gazing 28feb

2009-02-28T22:55:00.002+08:00

I'm pretty sure I did post this song lyrics some time before, but I shall do it again. This song is nice :) Btw, i dont have the mp3 of it, who has? please tell me k!

One Last Dance - Sarah Connor

Just one last dance....oh baby...just one last dance

We meet in the night in the Spanish cafe
I look in your eyes just don't know what to say
It feels like I'm drowning in salty water
A few hours left 'til the sun's gonna rise
Tomorrow will come and it's time to realize
Our love has finished forever

How I wish to come with you (wish to come with you)
How I wish we make it through

Just one last dance
Before we say goodbye
When we sway and turn round and round and round
It's like the first time

Just one more chance
Hold me tight and keep me warm
Cause the night is getting cold
And I don't know where I belong
Just one last dance

The wine and the lights and the Spanish guitar
I'll never forget how romantic they are
But I know, tomorrow I'll lose the one I love
There's no way to come with you
It's the only way to do

Just one last dance
Before we say goodbye
When we sway and turn round and round and round
It's like the first time

Just one more chance
Hold me tight and keep me warm
Cause the night is getting cold
And I don't know where I belong
Just one last dance

Just one last dance, just one more chance, just one last dance

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Yesterday was such a tiring day! Thankyou joel, he made me the honourable member of mj alumni band, thus I can play for the concert with geri, weejuay, zhenghong, joel, benny, rickson and the others. We tried 2 pieces (rhapsody of hanukkah and Howl's Moving Castle) and had a nostalgic lunch at the canteen.

Some conversations that made me laugh like mad.

mich: eat in canteen? okies, what's nice??
some guy: eh, nothing is nice in mj. (in a-matter-of-fact tone)
mich: -_-

(i saw joel and baolun queuing at the japanese food stall and went over)
mich: heys, what's nice for jap?
joel/baolun: orh, i dont know. i'm trying it because it is a new stall.
eh! we each order different one lar!

In the end, I chose the "never go wrong" option which was cai fan.

After the band prac, i headed to expo. ok, maybe it was only me who was the mountain tortoise for the day, I had no idea that we needed to pay entrance fee for the travel fair. Do you need to pay for the previous 2 travel fairs at Suntec Convention? And how about the food fair? The fee wasnt expensive, but i was just shocked.

i had placed my flute in my bag which stood out like taugay and was happily drinking my honey red tea and entered the hall. The security guard approached me quickly.

guard: hey miss.......
mich: *blur* orh! cannot bring drinks in, is it?
guard: no... where is your wrist tag?
mich: huh? what tag?
*started to scan around and realised the people inside had worn a red visitor tag on their wrists*
mich: hmmm, must pay to get in? (haha, i dont know whether to laugh at myself anot for saying/asking that. As I thought i was quite smart to guess correctly :)
guard: yar, if you pay by cash is 3 dollars, pay by mastercard is 2 dollars, please go to the queue over there (to pay the entrance fee)
mich: ok thanks. *felt DL and abit paiseh at the same time*

But thankfully I didnt waste my time at the fair. I went around, collected info, checked out prices for newzealand and europe tour packages. Haha, for graduation trip with geri. I like dynasty package, but abit more ex than the rest! So going on sunday to book! :) WHEE WHEE and throws lots of confetti!

Today I had to go down to school to fulfil my 5% star gazing participation points and attended a forum talk by Prof Jocelyn Bell. She is a visiting professor in Oxford and she is famous for her honours paper on pulsars. And it was this paper which won a Nobel Prize, but guess what? She didnt receive the Nobel Prize. It was given to her mentor instead. OMG! it was her paper, but the credits was given to her mentor? She became more famous because of this incident! But people from the circle still recognized her as a recipient of the award la.

And it was really raining cats and dogs in the evening! Had to go really slow especially at the NUH area. They changed the lane spacings so many times till it is so winding and sharp! Because of the unforeseen weather, star gazing was impossible! Telescopes and radio telescopes were set up in the src field, but you just couldnt see anything except those grey clouds covering the whole skies. All moods were dampened. Maybe as I am blogging, clouds would have dispersed and star gazing is on at nus. Yes, there are a whole grp of them who are staying overnight. I should have stayed abit longer since i had the car. I was at the field at 8pm and waited till 930pm and all i could see was clouds and more clouds. :( sigh!

Talking about star gazing, New Zealand has the world-first 'World Heritage Starlight Reserve' in the Lake Tekapo and Aoraki Mount Cook area in the South Island's Mackenzie Country. The conservationists are applying to the UNESCO for World Heritage Status.

" Astro-tourism is an exciting phenomenon finding its feet and causing intense interest throughout the world."

"A recent survey in Japan showed that 72 percent of people listed star gazing as the main reason they wanted to visit New Zealand"

"We have more than 1.5 million national and international visitors through the Lake Tekapo area each year. People are stunned by the scenery and now we say look upwards as well as around you. This clear, unpolluted dark sky here is one of our great assets - one so easily taken for granted and one so easily lost."

WOAH and WOW! I cant wait to go New Zealand :)

2009-02-23T22:08:00.002+08:00

SUPER TIRED! The whole week was filled with too many activities but I am loving it! Sun - met the girls (hx,zx,jas) and low for lunch. Since only the few of us turned up, low drove us to airport for lunch since there are more varieties there. We treated him to Sakae Sushi because we just found out through facebook that his birthday was the day before (Sat). For 2 years, we didnt know when his birthday was, and I didnt think any of us actually bothered to ask him. And only through the mighty internet (facebook), then we knew when his birthday was. Is it very ironic?

Anyway, he treated us desserts at Swensen's. We had 2 servings of topless five in order to have 10 flavours. I preferred the apple crumble but I had it on Saturday! After eating so much, we headed to his place for the main motive of the outing: to play his wii and guitar heroes. Wah, wii is uber fun! 4 consoles, just nice for the 4 of us :) But i always kanna to be the "toilet paper" --> last of the 4 la -_- WHY! Maybe because I dont play any computer games, therefore my scores suck! But we had loads of fun, played that rabbid game. Total nonsense game, all of you should try that game! Then we went to try out guitar heroes! arrh! the only bad thing is that all are english songs, and they are in the rock genre. But super entertaining la.... imagine seeing your tutor sing the songs with enthusiasm. All of us "high fan tian". Vivian came later to join us too. Ok, when we reached medium level, I cant make it for guitar. 5 different notes to take note of... i just cant do it!!! haha..

Sigh, fun times always pass so quickly. Actually we wanted to stay longer, so that we could kbox as well. But he said "i have qing kuang." His yue mu is coming to his house, so we got to leave. (anyway not that nice to impose him for too long) Night was still young for the energetic ones, so we went to have dinner at TM and decided to catch a night movie. Ok, no more midnight shows because no car too. We watched "Slumdog Millionaire". Hmm, the movie really did portrayed the other side of India and their culture. I dont want to be spoiler here, but at the beginning there was a scene which made me laugh till i nearly had stitches! Well done for the Oscars, they took home many awards! Btw, Dev Patel is not bad looking. So young, he's only 18????

Arh, there are quite a no of movies i wanna catch, including "He's JUST not that into you", "Bride Wars", "Departures" and many more! how how how? I only have one week break! :(

ccs 2009

2009-02-21T23:36:00.002+08:00

YAY! As i wished, my fav school HWAC CHONG INSTITUTION (JC) won! hooray *throws many many confetti* hahahaha, everyone in the whole LT agreed that they deserved to win. my goodness, they were way ahead of the 2nd and 3rd team. We had helpline like "sabotage" but the 2nd and 3rd team didnt use on hwachong, simply because it was no use. Even if they answer wrongly and to have 10 pts each = 20 pts in total to be deducted from their acct, they will still win the competition. So the 2nd and 3rd team just sabo-ed each other. Good strategy indeed (although the audience was very puzzled for a moment and was very noisy!)

Hwachong was very very strong. They led all the way from round 1-2-3 and their individual scores from preliminary round was the highest. my god. vj team was good too. the girl especially, but somehow her male teammates dont trust her answers and wouldnt use her answers :( very sad right?

therefore, Chancellor Challenge Shield 2009:
1st place: hwachong
2nd place: nus team
3rd place: vjc

btw, the emcee asked nus team if they were at an advantage (because of their age), but the team said no as there is no hierachy in knowledge. So what if u are in university or jc or even from the ip schools? it's a current affairs and general knowledge competition!

to sum it up, it was indeed a good one. although i kept complaining and whining, at least the hard work and effort paid off in the end, when the kids came up to you and say thankyou for everything. They loved the qns :) Including Mr Steven Chia. Arh, somehow he looks much better on tv though :) i didnt manage to take a photo with him because i refused to. shy la!! so paiseh! but he really speaks good english. really sweep u off your feet.. but our emcee was good. even though we had to pay her for her services, she speaks like a pro. Good Job!

In the end, we didnt let the boss treat us la... we werent that evil! we had a good dinner and.. yeah, my organizing committee are quite nice friendly people. maybe whenever we meet up, we are so stressed and frustrated over the ccs, we didnt have the chance to interact and the atmosphere of meetings were usually tense and.. ya loh.

so how? ccs 2010?? btw, everyone including teachers and students who took part last year said that this year qns were more difficult. DUH! this year i had help from this 2 zai guys who found damn hard qns to torture the poor kids. mine was friendly :) haha! but round3 was simply too challenging till noone could answer any qns and morale was low low low!

alot of things to talk abt ccs... but yea, great memories, both 2008 and 2009. Let's see for ccs 2010 la.

we were saying abt what to do/say if we were to ever meet mr barack obama? my very lame and not intelligent answer was to tell him that I am also called michelle. whahahaha!!!

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Who want to go with me to nus symphonic orchestra on 14march (sat) at ucc?

2009-02-21T01:18:00.002+08:00

ok, after trying for like one hour, i still cant load some photos. I realised I havent post any photos lately... and feel like putting up one old pic of me and geri, and another one that is the 3 of us (yan geri and me).

haha! hey, when are we gg to watch movie and EAT?! im not free on tues afternoon-evening (sectionals) and thurs evening (band). But free on any other days :) Better before the fri or weekend (that's when i think i will chiong hw and exams like siao!)

Anyway back to the old photos. last time dont have the luxury goods: digital cam... so we just relied on camera phone, at time which we thought was good enough! haha! omg, we really looked so young la! arrrh! one of my frens said, "School robbed our youth!" But then again, not attending school = no gain knowledge and proper education! And knowledge is power, an educated mind is an open mind! Dont you agree?

Tmr is the day :CCS! And i didnt mention who the guest-of-honour was right? None other than Mr Steven Chia, news presenter for Prime Time Morning ChannelNewsAsia! Let's see if he looks better in person. :)

problem rectified

We were so young~

2009-02-20T01:20:00.002+08:00

Michelle is looking forward to sunday. why?

I'm going to low's house for many wiifii games (includes guitar heroes), mahjong and blackjacks to satisfy the lgg-ness in me and most importantly, the company i'm gonna have that day. I realised I miss my jc class indeed. Being one of the more prominent classes around, the class which has the most house comm members, the class whose econs got 3rd in cohort, the class whose girls are damn rough during captainball (2nd place), floorball (1st), rugby(1st), the class who had a MTV made as a farewell gift, the class who simply had mr low as their CT.

I also pondered, why I prefer the past. Maybe I have no idea what the future holds. From the GEK1508, i learnt that noone knows about the future. Noone is able to tell the present, let alone the future. Noone can trip over to the future but we are able to trip back into the past. We are able to see the past. One good example would be the stars in the skies. The stars which you are looking at currently, are not stars of present. They are a thing in the past. So, if you want to see stars now, I'm so sorry but u have to wait at least 4 lightyears :)

I prefer the past because it seemed that life is alot simplier. Perhaps I have less worries therefore less things to think about. When you get older, more responsibilities befall on you. But that's how we mature and grow, isnt it?

Back to the topic, this Saturday is the ccs competition. Finally, the day is COMING! Ok, after today's meeting, some of my ideas from previous meeting were actually taken into serious consideration and i am glad :) so today's meeting ran smoothly. Wish me all the best on sat. I hope my fav sch like hwachong get into the final 3 this time round. and ok, tjcians, please do your best (this got nothing to do with gp!) Seeing that we have worked so hard, the boss decided to give us a dinner treat. Cornelius suggested some ex restaurant. Whee~ we deserve this treat k!

And, recess week is this coming week. Although i will have LOADS of backlogs to clear and study for my 3 midterms, i will have time to watch bridewars, slumdog millionaire, go ps cafe, do some shopping (as if hk wasnt enough, hello! temp soar to record 35deg!) and last and the most impt thing: to apply for jobs! yeah i have slacked enough, need to start on coverletter for each company.

Oh yes, please please go for NUS band concert on 21 Mar (sat) at UCC. I dont care, but geri, yan, weekiat and alice, you guys MUST go. I'm reserving the tickets for you guys (i need to sell 6 also lar) Hmmm, repetoire includes fantasy variations (hate that song), amazonia, puzsta (love this), hymm to infinite sky and others. Come support me, ben, zhenghong, weejuay, patrick, benny, joel, erina and the rest of them!

心跳 - 王力宏

2009-02-20T00:01:00.002+08:00

心跳 - 王力宏

想跟我吵架我没那么无聊
不懂得道歉我没那么聪明
好想要回到我们的原点

你又在哭泣我给不了安慰
我又在摇头有那么点后悔
爱情的发展已难以回头却无法往前走

但身不由己出现在胸口
两颗心能塞几个问号
爱让我们流多少眼泪

你的眼神充满美丽带走我的心跳
你的温柔如此靠近带走我的心跳
逆转时光到一开始能不能给一秒
等着哪一天你也想起
那悬在记忆中的美好

想跟我吵架我没那么无聊
不懂得道歉我没那么聪明
好想要回到我们的原点

但身不由己出现在胸口
两颗心能塞几个问号
爱让我们流多少眼泪

你的眼神充满美丽带走我的心跳
你的温柔如此靠近带走我的心跳
逆转时光到一开始能不能给一秒
等着哪一天你也想起
那悬在记忆中的美好

你的眼神充满美丽带走我的心跳
你的温柔如此靠近带走我的心跳
逆转时光到一开始能不能给一秒
等着哪一天你也想起
那悬在记忆中的美好

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last time will include

你的琴声如此优美带走我的心跳

although now it should be

你的笑容如此灿烂带走我的心跳
你的细心如此靠近带走我的心跳
你的成绩那么完美带走我的心跳
你的喜感幽默风趣带走我的心跳

i miss canada

2009-02-19T09:25:00.002+08:00

i seriously miss my days during exchange :( go to school machiam holidaying in some countryside, drinking as much ice cappacino, eating tim hoton's sandwiches and pizzas everyday, SU-able CORE modules, staying in the lib till wee hours, gg to chingi's room to watch nodame, avoiding geese shit, cooking and washing of clothes everyday, checking where to go for the next available weekend and the ultimate: nice and cool WEATHER!

i wanna go exchange again! or rather, i want to go back to canada.

-Nothing ever becomes real till it is experienced. John Keats.

This was the very quote from my fav lecturer which motivated me to apply for the prog.

happy vday 2009!

2009-02-15T04:05:00.002+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!

and jie, happy birthday :)

it's 4.02am, and i'm still pretty awake! what's wrong with my body clock? totally screwed as i always say. imagine ending lessons at 10pm on every mon and wed, ending sectional and band prac at 10.15pm on tues and thurs, PLUS ccs meeting on fri till 1040pm.

so my daily weekday routine is sleeping late, wake up early to fetch sis to work, then go home to sleep till lunch time. it is not very good for my health and skin cells but thanks god it is my last sem :)

alot of events happened this week. ok, mon-wed nothing in particular. thurs i went for nus career fair. ok, there are many booths but most of the companies (dso, psa, mod, keppel, dsta etc.) are looking for engineers. There were quite a number of job openings which required just a general degree but they are being a librarian, police officer, pilot, teacher etc. I walked from 11am-2pm and i only found 2 jobs that need statisticians. Credit Suisse and National Population thingy. I didnt dare to approach the angmohs from credit suisse, because i was unprepared to ask them any question. National population one looks pretty good, as they need us to help them analyze the data. I gave them my resume. Actually i am not exactly keen of running stats programmes and analyzing quantitative data, this is one job that i would not be fighting with ATs as they only accept singaporean due to the high security information. And this is NOT the time to be picky as well.

I gave my resume to about 5 companies in total, but there are 2 companies which i couldnt remember! i spent some time at the customs police officer booth, and found out more about the job. Totally cool, my kind of my job: not boring 8-5, not very desk-bound, challenging and exciting! there was 3 big booths from SAF, and the officers (navy, airforce and one more which i forgot) look so fit and all are good-looking. BUT, they looked too manly, noone dare to approach the booth, i just stood a distance away, trying to read what's on the posters :(

then at the fireman booth, actually i was just looking around, then the officer came to approach me, and i just asked him more about the job. He was friendly and told me alot of information and the whole conversation was really long and draggy. i didnt want to cut him abruptly, in case i was too rude or something. then i got a chance to do so, and i told him i didnt meet the height requirement of 1.61m then he ended, phew!

i spent alot of time at the fair because yaling and I have different majors = different career paths! She wants something to do with biological sciences. she managed to give her resume to a few companies too :) good for her ya!

and yes, i managed to give my resume to the caas. but i should apply online too. actually many companies told us to submit applications online, and some dont accept resumes at the fair.arh, i'm really lazy to start applying. that means must have the cover letter ready, then be ready for dreaded interviews and what's not. SO many things to fret over :( for now, i wished to say, i just wanna study!

no wonder the adults say studying is the best.

band... arh! from 645-1005, we only managed to play 2 songs? omg! i told my partner wth when he said start all over again at 10pm.

ccs: nothing much to talk about the competiton because im very pissed with the way the director is doing some stuffs but, he's still the boss. so, his decision is final. bleagh. it is indeed VERY tough working under him. i dont think it is because he's a perfectionist, he is just too lor soh and worry too much.

vday was really good. from initial date with geri to 3 singles+a couple. haha! we went to MS (our fave place) to have dinner at pasta waraku and desserts at that green tea icecream jap rest. actually the pasta waraku serves quite nice pasta and pizza, their servings are way too small! hello! i dont think buy-in-bulk pasta is that expensive. and what's with the corn? why so stingy with them? i like the biscuit thin pizza, i think the base is very nice and the saw-saw crust! love it. oh yar, i had pasta and 2 slices of pizza but i wasnt full. But desserts was sinful enough. Triple chocolate with soft icecream. YUMMY! best of all, the company was great! (if only we could play that texas poker :) )

ok, time to sleep, starting to feel abit tired le. thanks geri for the lovely lime green clover goodluck carebear! add on to my collection. yar, michelle likes all these stuffed toys, im still a kid at heart. i totally love carebears simply because they are cute and i had fond memories of them in my childhood days :) i bet all girls would love carebears :) i should expand my carebears collection until my mum cant recognise which is new carebear! whahaha!! now i have lucky EIGHT carebears! whee!!!!!! loads of love!

*** btw geri, i read yr blog about the "love's in the air" the posters in nus also have this phrase.

huat-ing time!

2009-01-26T22:44:00.004+08:00

#419 post

first of all, HUAT ah! happy chinese new year! gong xi fa cai!!! It's only the first day of cny, yet i am having a stuffed nose and sore throat. How can start the brand new year like that?!

As usual, the tradition of going to my ah ma house for tuan yuan fan. this year is scaled down because my grandpa passed away last year. No steamboat dinner. But i did lao-ed my first lo hei! :) Went to waterloo street temple as well as the temple at joochiat road to pray for good health, prosperity and success! This year, I did not go there before 12 midnight so the crowd was manageable. Last year my sis had to pull me out from the crowd as i was going to be trampled on at the spot when you going to offer the joss sticks. But last year i managed to see my fav news anchor: huang zhi hao :)

Yay! received big fat ang pows from my parents and sister. THANKYOU! but year after year, i would just put the angpows aside and not use the money :)

Actually I personally look forward to cny. Not because of angpows but to those goodies (pineapple tarts, hae bi hiam, crackers..." and I love that lively atmosphere. Everything is good during CNY, dont you think so? The good aura around.. the chinese say "xi qi yang yang".

*i wished i could hear my fav cny song on radio :)

Chu Yi: first place of visitation was to my grandma's (paternal) house for chok lunch. Then headed to those elders' homes. The usual ones that we visit every year, yet once a year. Then again, cny is like that. you will pay those relatives a visit, but only during cny. But it is good to catch up with each other, with those usual questions. Next year I will have another set of questions to answer. "Where are you working now?" and questions along that line. Since recession is gonna stay for dunno-how-long, i shall be glad to get any job right now, and wait for economy to get better to get any "dream" job.

Arh, can we have chu san as PH too? i think 2 days are really too short. But wells, we shouldnt be complaining.. the others have one day of holiday only :X

*updates: thanks to geri, weekiat and ben for coming over for the cny party. thanks for giving me face man! just told you guys at 3+ am! and dear yq, i still love you the same! we will go yr house on next sat to pai nian k! :)

HAHA! since i have the time, i went to try out the quiz too! here are my results:

Your view on yourself:You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

-my sis thinks im too straight forward at times, which isnt good.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

-Oh ok, this quiz is getting quite accurate huh? haha but who doesnt like serious, smart and determined people. yar, i have a draft post, its contents was about "never judge a book by its cover".. but i never post it.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

- hmmm...that's very true for now.

The seriousness of your love:You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

- haha! i ended laughing at "arent interested in wasting time with people you dont really like". omg, isnt this point go very well with the "straight-forward trait"? yar, wont you fall deeply in love with the person you love? i'm a hopeless romantic.

Your views on education:You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

- HAHA!! hopefully i end up with an unusual yet high paying and STABLE job huh? actually, in the past, i really love studying. i think this whole rat race thing killed all my interest. i was like a studious nerd till sec2 maybe? And, taurus are very practical people.

The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

- OHH!! i really didnt see this one! practicality! ^5 man, taurus are confirmed practical people! wells, any practical person would love to have a stable job and steady income. Dont you? But i think when you reach around 35, where money is no longer a big big issue, everyone should have a job that he/she really enjoys doing. Why just work for the money? Where are all the childhood dreams?

How do you view success:You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

- I'm really afraid of failures. But often, i would think of the most pessimistic outcome, so whenever something good comes out from it, i would be over the moon!

What are you most afraid of:You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

-Haha... hmmm

Who is your true self:You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

-more often, i use my heart more than my head to think. that's bad isnt it? hello! im an educated person, and heart still rules over head. gosh!

2009-01-24T18:36:00.002+08:00

This week was a whining week. I had whined so much for this whole week. Tutorial slot, band combine, band sectionals, and lastly the declaring of my major-minor modules. Out of all the whining and complaints, i have clearly "forgotten" how to be zi-ju contented and happy with little things in life. :(

(and most of my complaints this week are coming from band, URGH! so irritated)

But i'm glad that most things are settled. My declaration was finally done! I missed the deadline and I had received 3 email reminders prior to that. Well done isnt it? But thankfully the lady is so nice, she extended the deadline till Sunday. PHEW! And my tutorial slot, the lecturer allowed to CHAP in the popular tutorial slot.. but i might have to STAND! (for one hour, gosh!) whatever la..

actually the only thing not settled is sectionals. gosh. giving me such a big headache. this and that, this and that.

And another piece of good and bad news. Yay, my powerpt slides for the CCS competition is DONE! Whee! But the boss felt that the prelim mcq round was too simple =.= CRAP CRAP CRAP. the other 2 guys and I felt like giving up already! we are SO not going to do anything regarding ccs till after cny holidays. I had to rush out the ppt slides for them till 6am in the morning. And that was only half way done. I was in a total wreck when I went for band in the evening. My head felt like exploding and a phrase " CONCENTRATE WILL YA?" ended the night with a "BLAST" literally.

Chinese New Year is coming. Benjamin, is there a word "visitation?" haha, yeah we will have visitation this year. WHEN WHEN!?

2009-01-23T00:49:00.002+08:00

someone has same sentiments as me. he said "At the spur of moment, people tend to say/write thing that they havent really thought carefully about. Coming back to the same thought after "calming time" would give a more balanced view."

And i really hold to this principle. Many a times, i wanna "kill/slap/scream/shout" at that very someone, but i gave myself "calming time", which allowed me to see things more clearly and as what he said, so to "avoid a "put foot in the mouth" DISASTER!"

why allow things to turn sour, just because of that few moments of fury!

Anyway, do come support me by joining Chancellor's Challenge Shield 2009 ok?! it is on 21 Feb, at NUS Science LT25. Registration is free!

If not interested, how about band concert? On 21 Mar, NUS UCC. Repertoire confirmed, it's gonna be worth the "money". BTW, it's free, so why not just come down to join me for an evening of music? The songs are really quite difficult to play, so your presence makes me feel motivated to practise harder k! (kidding!)

if not, IF IF IF you guys think free stuffs are "not good", join me in Malaysia and we shall star gaze together under the moonlight :) 20-22Feb. Each pax ~S$130

Star gazing sessions at mersing was memorable. I have never seen something so spectacular in the skies before. Breath-taking. It is, lying on your back, looking at nothing but just STARS STARS and more STARS throughout the whole night.

angry me

2009-01-22T02:58:00.002+08:00

ha! i cant believe it! You can actually chided me off using sms =.= How about telling me face to face?

And i was childish enough to reply your nonsense msg with sarcasm, but i didnt send. "vetted" the whole msg over and over again.

I shall not burn the bridge, ya? Sadly, you did burnt yours. And who knows, you might need my help one day. (Actually I do hope that day will come QUICKLY)

Grow up.

no 4?

2009-01-13T23:40:00.000+08:00

You entered: Ho Hui Xin Michelle
There are 16 letters in your name.Those 16 letters total to 94There are 7 vowels and 9 consonants in your name.
Your number is: 4
The characteristics of #4 are: A foundation, order, service, struggle against limits, steady growth.
The expression or destiny for #4:Order, service, and management are the cornerstones of the number 4 Expression. Your destiny is to express wonderful organization skills with your ever practical, down-to-earth approach. You are the kind of person who is always willing to work those long, hard hours to push a project through to completion. A patience with detail allows you to become expert in fields such as building, engineering, and all forms of craftsmanship. Your abilities to write and teach may lean toward the more technical and detailed. In the arts, music will likely be your choice. Artistic talents may also appear in such fields as horiculture and floral arrangement, as well. Many skilled physicians and especially surgeons have the 4 Expression.

The positive attitudes of the 4 Expression yield responsibility; you are one who no doubt, fulfills obligations, and is highly systematic and orderly. You are serious and sincere, honest and faithful. It is your role to help and you are required to do a good job at everything you undertake.

If there is too much 4 energies present in your makeup, you may express some of the negative attitudes of the number 4. The obligations that you face may tend to create frustration and feelings of limitation or restriction. You may sometimes find yourself nursing negative attitudes in this regard and these can keep you in a rather low mood. Avoid becoming too rigid, stubborn, dogmatic, and fixed in your opinions. You may have a tendency to develop and hold very strong likes and dislikes, and some of these may border on the classification of prejudice. The negative side of 4 often produces dominant and bossy individuals who use disciplinarian to an excess. These tendencies must be avoided. Finally, like nearly all with 4 Expression, you must keep your eye on the big picture and not get overly wrapped up in detail and routine.

Your Soul Urge number is: 1

A Soul Urge number of 1 means: Your Soul Urge is the number 1. With a Soul Urge number of 1, you want to lead and direct, to work independent of supervision, by yourself or with subordinates. You take pride in your abilities and want to be recognized for them. You may seek opportunities to display your strength and usefulness, wanting to create and originate. In your desire to manage the big picture and the main issues, you may often leave the details to others.
The positive 1 Soul Urge is Ambitious and determined, a leader seeking opportunities. There is a great deal of honesty and loyalty in this character. If you possess positive 1 Soul Urge qualities, you are very attainment oriented and driven to success. You are a loyal friend and strictly fair in your business dealings.

The negative side of the 1 Soul Urge must be avoided. A negative 1 is apt to dominate situations and people; the home, the spouse, the family and the business. Emotions aren't strong in this nature. If you possess an excess of 1 energy, you may, at times, be boastful and egotistic. You must avoid being too critical and impatient of trifles. The great need of the 1 Soul Urge is the development of friendliness, and a sincere interest in people.

Your Inner Dream number is: 3

An Inner Dream number of 3 means: You dream of artistic expression; writing, painting, music. You would seek to more freely express your inner feeling and obtain more enjoyment from life. You also dream of being more popular, likable, and appreciated.

btw, as of today, i lose faith in myself.

a very sad michelle

2009-01-13T23:08:00.002+08:00

i survived 2 days of school.

not without fear and tears.

this sem is going to be so tough. how many times have i complained/whined about the semesters? But this sem i'm really scared. never felt like this before. yes probably because it is the last sem, every single grade will matter so much to me. one core+ 2minor modules + a module that i like.... not that easy.

SIX dear minor modules, if not for you guys, my grades would have been really wonderful. I'm not kidding. Just to get a minor, i sacrificed my cap to a point of no return. I'm really disappointed.

And again, my mum told me to study the 4th year. Hello! Not as if i dont wan, the point is I cant. And to think that my ah-ma said i dont want to study anymore because im "hoong sim". crap! totally crap! i dont mind if you say im stupid...so stupid that i cant do honours. But you cant say i have already fen xin in my studies and want to go out and work. I'm working so hard, trying to compete and be pari passu with the rest. I know im not as smart as those stupid ATs.... im very stressed about it and i'm trying my best.

whatever the hell la. this is so sad. because of the stupid remarks, it made me cry the whole day. thanks.

2009-01-11T01:14:00.002+08:00

many a times, i wished things could be abit simplier or just less complicated-troublesome-cubersome. i was really happy that day, that day that i met my really best friends and my pri sch frens. how nice if really, we were back to those good old days... playing catching-collecting saga seeds-writing hate letters-playing hopscotch... i think these friends, if ever come a time when i will only meet them once in ten years, there wont be any moment of awkward silence.

they are my blessings and i am thankful to god for planting them in my life.

feeling emo now, WHY? haha, because sch is reopening? how many times have you experienced this already? but this time is different. this sem makes a lot of difference and after this sem, fear/excited of sch no more. im graduating this sem *throws early confetti*

how this sem will be? i can forsee it wont be an easy one. duno why but my 6th sense tells me it will be the hardest sem. can the papers stop publishing reports like "jobs cut low", " economy gloom", "less jobs".... you are just demoralizing pple. yes, who doesnt know economy is like the shittest of the shit now. but why why why keep emphasizing? last time was usa, then china, then like yst japan. what's wrong with u pple? so many negative reports, pple are scared of this and that, with all these, when will economy be better?

-_-

maybe im foolish to comment. im not an economist or any financial analyst. but... do have reports that will increase pple's confidence during these bad times. boost morale reports instead of die die die.

just my thoughts. dont sue me.

happy new year 2009!

2009-01-03T23:34:00.002+08:00

happy new year 2009! gosh! cant believe it's already 2009! many new year resolutions, including graduating, getting that job, slim down and hopefully i would get my bike license soon!

zoom zoom!!! mazda3 red is the colour. although i hate the slow pick up speed, change it to manual mode and you can totally feel a diff. i didnt realise the big difference until the day i sat in alice's car. i shall try it the next time! cant wait to drive to sch AGAIN :)

To hongkong!

2008-12-15T02:38:00.002+08:00

woo! i havent been blogging for MANY days already! For the past week, i went out almost everyday, 3 consecutive days with yan, and 1 whole night-day for my jc class gathering. The turn out was pretty good! :) quite glad with it!

Seemed that 2008 year isnt that fantastic for rabbit lovers huh? a couple of my friends broke up and the whole thing was really hurting them like crazy. as one said.. it was mind-f*ing for him. For now, i just hope i could be their listening ear and be there for them. I may not be in their shoes and know how exactly they feel, but i can understand how it feels like to be in such situation and their feelings. Jiayou! you all will overcome this tough period!!

As for my case, i gave up on that day. Sounds cliche but it was not destined to be. I cried too much already... till to the point that I'm afraid I would go blind... haha!

Channel 5 show Love Actually, one of my favourite movies all time (faves include armaggedon, Harry Potter part1) So, which love story do you like most? I like the unspoken love, the story of the guy loving his best friend's wife (keira knightly) I teared abit when he came to her house, told her that he loves her.

"To me, you are perfect..."

So romantic right? No words exchanged, just words on cardboards and a kiss.

Wah, what is the time now?! 2.54 am, i need to sleep soon! going hk from 15-29 dec! dont miss me! im going there to meet geri alice vir and friends! woah! as you all know, im looking forward to this trip! i m gonna make it right!

dunno why but just now i felt very emo... is it because i will miss my family? haha! my family are gg KL on the same day too... be careful in msia and yi lu shun feng too!!!

be back with more updates...!

2008-12-02T22:43:00.002+08:00

on the news, i saw the word "WIN" - "ชนะ". Every PAD supporters (yellow tee shirts) was cheering! yes finally for them, the thai court stripped pm somchai wongsawat of his post and barred from politics from 5 years. woah! They too promised to evacuate both airports by tmr. This also ended a 6-mth long "street-protests".

for my southeast asian music, i learnt that Luuk Thung (thai popular music) is an identity for the thais, especially for the rural poor, urban poor and middle class thais. It is able to bond thais together, like during Asian Crisis 1997. Perhaps, the thais should listen to more Luuk Thungs now, so to have that common sense of identity.

news reported that they would take a week or longer to check the security systems as they were compromised. It would take longer if anything breaks down or needs to be repaired. The representative said, " we need to check. recheck. check. recheck."

so tmr is wed. check the systems for a week = next wed.. the following mon, mich would be on her cathay flight to hk via bkk suvarnabhumbi... everything should be fine by then :) and it would be the same plane from sin-bkk-hk :) yay i cant wait! im wondering how much should i change.

Arh, need to check hotels' rates like SOON! geri, i will go see the names of hotels u given me.. and the ones in hk island tmr.

sigh, it doesnt feel like the end of exams, i dunno why. it feels very normal... just that i dun have to go to sch. today i fetched my sis to work and go back home. But i was so used to gg to aye (tuas) instead of ecp! nearly took the wrong turn!!!

But im not gg to nua at home for the next few days. gg out with huixian tmr, with pongie on thurs, fri with vir and huixian to watch zuxian's performance, sat with ben and zen for kbox. must fully utilize my time! after this one month holidays, would be my last nus semester.. then WORK! no more 3 mths long holidays already! HOW HOW?? this is gg too fast! and some of my friends are already attending interviews! i havent even started writing my cv! and most prob my cv is like -_-

today went out with my mama, and i was good! i didnt buy anything at all.. though i saw some pretty stuffs :) the only i bought was food - some japanese gummy sweets. Had a very very very bad headache for the whole afternoon, till now. :( is it because of the weather? today was really scorching hot! i tot the papers reported rainy period is till early jan! what's gg on?

holidays also mean i can continue my beading. i stopped during the semester... had to rush out some stuffs for this sweet girl in uk whom i knew for 2 years plus, through the internet, as she had a piano score that i wanted. She came to singapore this year, i thought i could meet her! But she came when i was in exchange. She told me she was sun burnt in sentosa.. haha! Poor thing :x

arh! i cant find gem of life online. who knows any good site to watch hk dramas??

2008-11-26T23:28:00.002+08:00

OH WELLS (my pet missed this phrase).... just embarassed myself with something i typed -_- haiya, sian. nvm la.. moving on..

anyway, after wed 26nov 7pm, michelle has ONE more paper left, which is financial mathematics. the module name doesnt sound that friendly right? haha, especially with the crisis we are facing right now.

poor BKK!! protestors at the airport! many airlines had to cancel/delay flights :( sad for those who only took afew days leave for a short getaway at bkk!! but im VERY sure they would be gone and everything's fine when i transit at bkk right? if not, shi jie da luan liao loh!

btw to everyone, on the 15th-29th dec, michelle will be in HONGKONG with her pet and her kid. *THROW LOADS OF CONFETTI!* (that day the sta woman scared me, she typed my ticket as XING instead of XIN, luckily i checked!!) michelle would be stuffing herself crazy with smelly tofu, chilli fishball, crispy yu dan, LOADS of gong zai mee, french toasti, roasted pigeons (if i dare to try), char siew fan, siew mai, beef marrow noodles, char siew baos and drink loads of lemon tea, ginger coke, lemon coke, stocking milk tea. hk cafe serves the best lemon tea :) haiya, just every unhealthy food u can find at those pushcarts.

not only it will be a gain-weight trip (GERI! u are gonna be with me!), michelle would be shopping crazily at tsim sha tsui espirit outlet, all her accessories shop at heartland malls, another shop call crazy room and other cheap shopping places that HER PET must bring her. buy buy buy!

yar, basically mich and geri are gonna to rock hk streets for at least 4 days while mich's pet is mugging for her paper.

we are gonna scream our hearts out at ocean park (that place is boring -_-) and terrorize all the kids (ang-gugu) in disneyland. And... michelle MUST go to lan kwai fong at least twice!! to go pick up hot hongkie guys man! hahaha!!! (i'm kidding!) but geri! let's go lan kwai fong, so many times i go hk, i nv go INSIDE the pubs -_-

and michelle wants to go to TAI O... and i think geri must go lantau island. we go there eat seafood? (her pet will be treating :) :) :)

ok, shall stop here. suddenly no mood

exam coming!

2008-11-20T01:13:00.003+08:00

i LOVE rainy weather though it makes me sleepy and i just want to nua in bed the whole day.

"raining days would be expected till early jan"... so get ready all the "rainy-day" clothes a.k.a long sleeves, knitwear and more cardigans! :) :)

* oh yar, did i mention that i spoilt (colour run) my yellow cardigan in exchange? no, actually not only the yellow cardigan was ruined, it was a full load of clothes -_- a white shirt was bleached purple, my blue top became dark blue, my yellow towel turned into a very dirty yellowish colour, white dkny became blue and my purple pyjamas was the "normal" one.

and to think that the dark blue cardigan was washed before and it was the last item that was put into the washer. i was contemplating whether to wash it, i threw in the last min.

for the loss of the yellow cardigan, i bought another yellow cardi from zara, WHEE! but i still preferred the old one.

ok, that aside, rainy days arent good days for driving. and dunno why so many accidents these days! at siglap the subaru-porche-taxi, and today my friend saw a 5 vehicle pile up, she said it was shocking! and... 2 days ago, saw another one at keppel, sports car and suzuki swift. Sports car owner was COOL diao liao la! i saw him step out of the car, a total replica of DAO MING SI! the japanese version! with that curly hair, with bandana, leather jacket, rugged jeans and army-style boots.

ok, in case u guys are wondering WHY did i get such details, because it made me stuck at the jam for almost 20 min! and barely moving! and i was beside it.... yar, when come down from the flyover at keppel, the accident happened there. totally jam every single car! massive massive jam! usually i take 40 min to reach school, plus the time i fetch my sis to work. that day about one half hour.

ok, exams coming. DAMN! so much stuffs unfinished. i cant stay at home. today was really very lazy to go to sch because no car! then actually can join ben at vj to mug, but then have to wear shoes somemore.. ma fan man! so stayed at home. slacked from 4 plus to dinner time la.. sian!

current fave, after exams im gonna watch the eps for one million star batch 2.. because got yuming and jane huang... power! and ben! quickly finish the moonlight resonance.. SUPER nice.. u will be hooked! arh!!! introduce me nice tvb dramas to watch during holidays! i cant wait!!! after 1 dec.... YES! and i will go on shopping spree ( if my hk trip is not materialized)

神木与瞳-爱炼

我不懂把握这种结果
你别说别说不是心痛
我放了手像不再为爱前进的时钟
停在心头

布拉格记录不我们的所有
我的梦从此已经不同
那些感情继续在不对的刻有多久
我的世界我来掌握

你给的爱像手链牵住了我
爱的太多
而我想要的你却得不到
两人的世界就像下了一场心碎的春梦

没沉默我却有种心痛
猜不透你心里想什么
我的感情为你失去了自由要多久
就算是爱我想解脱

你给的爱像手链牵住了我
爱的太多而我想要的你却得不到
两人的世界就像下了一场心碎的春梦

我要的爱用温柔链住了我
不会退缩而你不曾问我是否快乐
俩人的世界都不必再折磨
谢谢你爱我

dont you love this song too?

jealous?

2008-11-14T23:22:00.002+08:00

haix. what's wrong graduating without honours? why must take honours? pressure AGAIN. "i want you to further your studies..."

"i want you..." is what you want. but it is NOT what i want. all of you are totally wrong, i never like studying in the first place. i detest it when i have to study something is not of my interest and worse, not of any practical use. i know gaining more knowledge will be good and useful, especially during bad times like now. I know, and i'm for it. That's why i dont mind spending time to read newspapers, watch the news everyday and read up on interesting things.

yeah yeah, im wasting my time in whining about such stuffs. Should have put the time to a better use.

When i replied "i'm not intending to further my studies...", came a worrying reply. "Then what you want to do? Go work? With more degrees is better..."

Whatever la. you guys never know what i like. Not as if im saying also. i will prob face alot of objections. I dont know why i nv told anyone, i think im afraid of people laughing at me. Because i dont think i can make it. Hopefully can of course! That's why when people ask me what i wanna work as in the future, either i shrug my shoulders and smile/laugh and said i dunno, or i just reply something (irrelevant).

with just 2 more weeks to the end of yet again semester, i really feel the pressure of graduating well and landing myself with a good job aka good money.

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anyway realised something SCARY! the quieter people are, the more deadly... those who keep quiet are the scary one. gosh, go go go and mug quietly bah. smart but empty inside.

2008-11-14T23:14:00.001+08:00

dont be too concerned

exams coming... 24 nov! whoots lar!

chope seats malu!

2008-11-12T00:14:00.003+08:00

KUDOS to that group of smu students who did a project on "reserving seats using packets of tissue papers". They gave out packets of tissue papers which were sponsered by SKM. The words on the packet screams " This seat is NOT taken. It's YOURS!"

Personally, i dont mind people using school bags (which i do) or their files or better still, leave someone at the table to za-ga the table for you and friends.

i cant stand that small packets of tissue paper used to chope seats. that small little fellow can be used to chop a whole table! what's going on?! i think this culture started at raffles place by the OLs. i think it is passed down from the aunties OLs to the younger OLs, BOOM! everyone is doing it! ridiculous lar. seriously leh. I wondered if next time, if i ever be an OL, will i become like that? goodness! power of tissue! i ever saw this group of OLs (A), "confiscating" another group of OLs (B) tissue paper and buat bodoh when they returned with their trays of food. Then group A did the same thing when they went to buy their food, leave another packet of tissue paper on the table. I wished another bitchier group of OLs (C) would do the same.. and this whole vicious cycle goes on.... till lunch hour is over.

Maybe i should start my own campaign too. Take a plastic bag, and CONFISCATE/COLLECT all the packets of "free" tissue paper.

this is one of the things that make us singaporeans.

Singapore kindness movement hopes to encourage singaporeans to be more gracious through simple acts of kindness.

i read another blog article written by Dr Tan. Another unique singaporean "movement". tada! the patting of seat. Haha! that one, i have to admit doing so. (not all the time!)

http://www.nowhere.per.sg/?page_id=57

he calls it "patting seat" syndrome and the whole process is "feel and shift". VERY funny lar!

the whole process is like that (based on my experience too -________- i wanna shoot myself in the toe liao)

1) stranger A got up, and you went up to the empty seat
2) BEFORE sitting down, pat pat the seat and "feel" the temperature of the seat (dr tan wrote it as "hand will be rotated to test seat temperature <- GROSS!)
3A) if OK! sit down normally and doze off.
OR
3B) if seat is still WARM (disgusting as it may sound), sit at the very edge of the seat. subconsciously, your butt will move backwards alittle by little. Place palm on seats to test waters aka temperature. REPEAT the "feel and shift" process until you occupy the whole seat. and of course, DOZE OFF.

WTH! why am i like that?! why so auntie?! this is a legend. i saw my ah ma and my mum doing so. -_- '''

SO, what else? What other actions?

YOU, singaporean NOT enough if

1) you can tahan the hot humid weather
2) you peppered your sentences with our "powDerful" singlish
3) you like chicken rice/laksa/rojak/hokkien mee

If you are guilty to the above 2 actions (which i'm pretty sure you guys have done so before) and perhaps some OTHERS, yay! truly singaporean sia!

*ahem, now, it has been confirmed that a well known celebrity has became a singaporean, would we ever see her doing the above actions? HAHA! i would love to see that!*

2008-11-06T20:38:00.002+08:00

mich needs a new blog.

just 18 days to exams. less than 3 weeks. it's really time to start studying. I need that break after exams. Adding to my exam stress, i have a report due on 14nov and i have written 0 words. How nice -_-

i guess nus libraries and I are going to be really good friends these few days :) and the music library is quiet, and the librarian remembers me somehow. So, maybe i should just rot in music library. Good thing is that I have parking at raffles hall and i dun have to look at available seats in central/biz/science. But there is no canteen at music library, only a makan place at UCC. However, the price is not very friendly to students like myself.

I miss UW library though. They have the best zi pi tables around, the table is quite big (meant for angmoh) and each desk is equipped with the "table lamp/table light" and 2 power points loves! :):) :) You can bring food into the library except for hot food/fries (because they will smell), you can talk/discuss projects with your friends on the first level. only. They have special sections called "Silent Study" and you really CANT talk there, even if you whisper, the people there would be annoyed. So it is the most condusive environment. You cant "chop" and reserve seats for your friends. The librarian will make her rounds. If she notices a table without a "human being", she would leave a yellow coloured note. On it, she wrote the time she came to check. If you havent returned after half an hour, she will clear the table. Seriously, they will do that.

There was once i told her my housemate limhui just went to the toilet and would be back in a jiffy. She said, "it's ok, it doesnt matter..." and left the yellow piece of paper. Wells, their way.

Another time, we went for a longer lunch break, and we came back just in time! because after we sat down, the next 5 sec, the librarian came with a trolley. But she was really happy to see us. She said " You girls are so lucky! im just about to clear your tables!" very -_- but yeah, thank god... It's really VERY difficult to find a seat at Silent Study.

They should implement this system in nus. I have already told the science dept. But I dont think it will work in nus. If the librarians were to touch any of our stuffs, im sure as singaporeans, we will COMPLAIN!

But cool man, they have a whole level of the library just open for talking and discussion. The tables there are not the zi pi kind. It's the long big kind of table, able to accomodate 4 persons. And at each side of the table, there are 2 power sockets. No matter how loud you laugh, the librarians wont chase you out for the library. So convenient for project meetings. Sometimes it's so hard to find an air-conditioned place in school for project discussion and meetings and we often ended up at the wooden benches with limited power sockets.

And the borrowing of RBR books. Maybe they have alot of copies for each rbr book, so students are allowed to borrow for 3 days instead of 2 hours. But their fine is heavy! Overdue for a day = CAD 20 bucks! They have a cap till CAD 100!!!!!!! good or bad? haha!

I find the school books here are much cheaper. I bought my financial accting book for CAD85 and i cant sell it back as second hand. :(:(:(:( my friend bought her ODE 2 book for 100++++ wth!

Ok, tata, im gg to watch my hk drama.. life is quite short, enjoy while i can.

那么爱他

2008-11-04T21:35:00.002+08:00

演唱:李圣杰vs林隆璇李圣杰

直到爱像是你才懂得
去珍惜身边每个美好风景
只是他早已离去

直到你想通他早已经不再对你留恋
最后的你开始的一段挣扎喔....

你那么爱他为什么不把他留下
为什么不说心里话
你深爱他这是每个人都知道阿

你那么爱他为什么不把他留下
是不是你有深爱的两个他
所以你不想再让自己无法自拔喔...喔....

直到爱像是你才懂得
去珍惜身边每个美好风景
只是他早已离去

直到你想通他早已经不再对你留恋
最后的你开始的一段挣扎喔...

你那么爱他为什么不把他留下
为什么不说心里话
你深爱他这是每个人都知道阿

你那么爱他为什么不把他留下
是不是你有深爱的两个他
所以你不想再让自己无法自拔喔...喔....

你那么爱他为什么不把他留下
为什么不说心里话
你深爱他这是每个人都知道阿

你那么爱他为什么不把他留下
是不是你有深爱的两个他
所以你不想再让自己无法自拔喔...唉....儿

2008-11-02T22:32:00.002+08:00

For the heartbroken people...

歌手：万芳

新不了情

心若倦了泪也干了
这份深情难舍难了
曾经拥有天荒地老
已不见你暮暮与朝朝

这一份情永远难了
原来时还能再度拥抱
爱一个人如何死守到老
怎样面对一切我不知道

回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了今夜的你应该明了
愿难了情难了

心若倦了泪也干了
这份深情难舍难了
曾经拥有天荒地老
已不见你暮暮与朝朝

这一份情永远难了
原来时还能再度拥抱
爱一个人如何死守到老
怎样面对一切我不知道

回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了今夜的你应该明了
愿难了情难了

回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了今夜的你应该明了
愿难了情难了

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Guess what?!! my mum gave me the green light! i can go learn to bike! haha my uncle and aunt are really happy for me and support me all the way :) I'm supposed to tell my aunt when i start the first lesson.

I went to the comfort driving school website to take a look at the fees. my goodness. SO EX! i have decided to pay everything myself since i want to learn it.. and my parents have already paid for my driving fees. should i start in dec? i should start booking now. Getting the license before im 22 is kinda impossible, it will be in such a hurry.

Class 2B then Class2A followed by Class2. 3 levels...

should i take up tuition to pay for my bike fees? anyway, i have received reminder emails for school fees, but i didnt really take notice of them. UNTIL one day, it was the last reminder email to pay my OUTSTANDING school fees. If i dont make payment by then, the lady wrote we shall SIT DOWN and talk about my financial situation. And, i wouldnt be getting my exam results, SU options... not too bad huh, at least it didnt say it will barred me from examinations. Starting tis sem, it seemed that they do not send school fees statement anymore. Usually after receiving the letter, my dad would then put the $$ into the giro for deduction.

And i freaked my mum out that i need to pay the outstanding bills by nov1. And you know my mum la... kancheong unti, eh, let's call the bank now and ask them transfer money man! wah, paiseh man! need people to remind us to pay school fees -_-'''

confession

2008-11-02T01:49:00.003+08:00

yo, it's me again. Haha! i've been blogging much more these days right? haha because my kid and silly goat are in some far away land(S) and i need someone to chitchat with. That's why i have to blog!

I have no idea how did that topic pop out, but suddenly i told my mum that once the heartbeat stopped, that's the end. You will never know what is happening anymore. You will just be a legacy, a history. Everything will just end. Just think about it, once you *** (CHOYCHOY!), you will never know what is going on even for the next second. You want to know what is going to happen next time but you cant. All the wonderful memories you had and want to be remember will be gone. Not because you became senile, it is because you have stopped thinking, you stopped breathing. I ALWAYS cant describe this feeling, but ya.. do you guys know what im saying?

Then my mum told me to live life to the fullest, which is exactly the name for my blog. I didnt know why, but i asked my mum if she has had any regrets. She said yes. Though I know everyone would have some regrets in life, I was taken aback by her words. She added on by saying that she will try her best to do the "things", so next time no more regrets. I dont know what she meant by the "things", but mum, im sure u have already done yr best.

so, the words "live life to the fullest" and after watching sat night movie: Armageddon, i was given a "reality" check. It spur me on. I really need to go catch and realise my dream. As what huixian put on her nick "fight for what you want", i have to know what i want, my dream and my goal in life. haha! why do i sound like that these days? Am i really growing OLD?

yeah i'm 21 already, i'm an adult, i have to start making plans for myself, how am i going to walk my life? I need to be in control. I need to live it well. Next year I'm going to start work, I'm on my own. No more daddy/mummy's girl, welcome to the harsh world.

Sorry for the cheong hei post. I'm just doing self reflection.. which i always do. I guess I'm gonna make a decision soon. But i know it might be a terrible one.

my mean machine

2008-11-01T17:44:00.002+08:00

Let you guys see what my mean machine is...

Sorry, I didnt get a close up shot, but it looked really that GOOD and CHOI in real life. There are only 2 in singapore. This BMW bike with horsepower 76 is much bigger than the usual bikes (horsepower 70). This mean machine belongs to my uncle.

Ever since I've gotten my class3 license, I want to proceed on to Class2A and then Class2... but my mum disallowed me! I feel that it's all right to learn to ride a motorbike :) However many would say, what's the point of learning if you dont bike next time right? But I wanna learn it for fun!! I have to learn this when im still young, my bones are still strong and my reflexes are still quick and fast. Imagine when im in my 40s, i wouldnt dare to learn anymore!

Guess what my friend said about me "shuai with a tinge of adventure is what you desire lol"

Btw, my parents kept pestering me to drive my dad's car. Because sometimes, my dad is too tired to fetch my bro back to camp and i would like to help.. but my sis might be out with her car, and i wouldnt dare to touch the other car. So, they said, in case of any emergencies *CHOYCHOY* i have to get used to driving the other mean machine -__-

so, my dad and I went for a spin from my house to T3. yar, it was smooth and good ride! yay! i "passed"... while sticking to lane2. haha! nono, i DIDNT tailgate at all, because i cant afford to do so. It doesnt even feel like you are going at 95kmh!! But i would definitely prefer the mazda at any time... for now :)

A side note: to my previous post, i dont mean anything against or discriminate a 8to5job. Hang hang chu zhuang yuan... but I am just not suitable for such job.

gloomy prospects

2008-11-01T01:07:00.003+08:00

global crisis, economy crisis, black monday, black tuesday, black wednesday till friday. (no sat and sun because no trading on weekends)

call, put, bear and bull markets.... plus all the weird terms and formula i'm currently learning for my financial mathematics module (it sucks!)..

with all the fears of recession, i'm STILL planning a trip to hongkong. I'm pretty broke but i have been wishing for a hk trip for some time already! Today i went to nus sta to check out the airfares. Cathay is offering me $617 inclusive of taxes. I thought it was not too bad, until xinyi told me budget airline jetstar is 470++ with tax too.

hmm, more than $100 difference! S$100=~~HK$526

$100 in exchange for COMFORT, baggage allowance, 2 meals on board, online entertainment and sitting with geri (I REALLY HOPE!) The first criteria is really important (actually 3 hrs flight shouldnt be a problem for budget airlines). Yes, even though sin to hk is just a mere 3 hours, i would prefer to fly by cathay :) my preferred airlines. In the past, it was SQ. Due to the horrible service i have gotten, now my family usually fly by cathay. But i must say that SQ serves really good food during festive seasons :) and their inflight entertainment KrisWorld rocks my socks!

Wells wells, decided not to ask for sponsership this year, because my exchange trip cost a big bomb! Actually come to think for it, i didnt spend MUCH on shopping/things/souveniers... but my airfares contributed a big bulk to my total expenses.

Haix, there is something else to worry about: no ticket HOME! i have reserved a flight on dec13, BUT there is no more flights home :( i'm already on waiting list (to be on same flight as geri on 29dec) And also, geraldine has no flight from Vancouver to HK (all the hk students must have snapped up all the tix home!!!!) So she's also on waiting list..

let's hope everything turns out fine and well and goes according to plan k! i cant wait!!!

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DSC is so crappy. I have already tried very hard for the midterms, and the median is 82, average is 78!!! wth!!! sigh, i'm below average :( my fren actually said this " i feel very sorry for your DSC, your competitors are way too strong!)

yeah, my friend knows many of his zai friends who are taking dsc with me. ARH! why are you guys fighting with me?! and they are complaining that they didnt get full marks despite an excellent score of 95. And nope, the paper wasnt easy to start off with.

ok, zai zai zai. they are sheng. im bu tong ren a.k.a fan ren.

whatever lar, i'm giving up on education. Sigh because of my sucky results. yaya, everything is about cap cap cap cap cap. Recession will hit us by this dec, # of jobs created fell so much this quarter and will continue to decline. My batch would most prob be the worst hit graduate cohort, yet i dont really wish to continue studying. I'm pretty sick of the stupid maths/programing modules. If I were (and able) to get a regular office job, i know i wont get any excitement from looking at figures and charts, nor satisfaction even from end-of-year bonus. I dont want to spend the next few years toiling for nothing. I dont want to work for that kind of mundane job. Many might think it would be good to have a 8-5 office job, since working hours are fixed, sit in air-con office, doing your work in front of computer. NO!!!! I cant do that for 10 years.

I need a life, i need something different everyday (yes, numbers can be diff everyday)
i need variations, i need excitement, i need that adrenaline rush (looking at the current stock market can give you that kind of "rush" too).

How? Should i follow my dream? gloomy prospects. I need a better degree.

2008-10-29T23:53:00.002+08:00

currently loving these 3 songs. Heard 为你而活 on radio long time ago, but didnt bother to dl it. Since on 13nov going to watch 神木与瞳 Nuspru campus concert with benjamin, zen and benny, i have to learn some of their songs right? Crap, this time pru didnt ask me to go help out. the previous concert was angela zhang.. didnt go as well.

黑武士 - is my fav song in jj's latest album :) these few times, i dont have to go look for the songs myself, benjamin has all the latest albums.. just have to ask him to send to me! haha!

Always Online - Nice tune.. i like it as well :) 3,2,1 I'm always online, 和你one two one 爱开始扩散....

Go listen to jj latest album. actually i like all the songs... even the one he duet with fama. NICE starting!

为你而活

歌手：神木与瞳
专辑：为你而活

看生命像阵风包不住的痛所以紧握双手
抬起头那流星般的笑容只不过坠落在心中

天空会裂缝我肩头添上的爱那黱久就不怕滂沱
用眼泪庆贺跨过了坚信这一扇门后真的有天国

为了你而活为了你而梦为了爱我会撑到最后
当世界都乌有守著你的人是我
为了你而活为了你而梦伤痕再深心无法划破
跟命运在逆流就算错了也不退后

不闪躲在这荆棘遍布中那伤口会开出花朵
天空会裂缝我肩头添上的爱那黱重就不怕滂沱
用眼泪庆贺跨过了坚信这一扇门后真的有天国

为了你而活为了你而梦为了爱我会撑到最后
当世界都乌有守著你的人是我

为了你而活为了你而梦伤痕再深心无法划破
跟命运在逆流就算错了也不退后

为了你而活为了你而梦为了爱我会撑到最后
当世界都乌有守著你的人是我

为了你而活为了你而梦伤痕再深心无法划破
跟命运在逆流就算错了也不退后

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黑武士

歌手：林俊杰专辑：jj陆

有了天空为何世界还有地心引力
有了希望为何绝望还是如影随形
有了勇气就让哭泣埋藏过去
去写一种历史名字叫奇迹

如果恐惧就像火炬
那就让它沸腾我血液
带我到绝地喔
我才能完全觉醒

在黑暗的对面是光明
光明后面是阴影
正义邪恶是谁有权定义

在命运的前面我怀疑
在面具后面铁一般决心
光荣的牺牲也是种荣誉

要扭转命运最后的反击
不怕人说不要人懂我要证明
明天我的姓名将会是传奇

失败会设下陷阱没有胜利
会发出邀请只有我自己喔
能够还我自己公平还我自己公平

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歌手: 林俊杰专辑：jj陆
always online

变色的生活人性的挑拨疯狂的冒出了头
单方的守侯试探的温柔还是少了点什么
遥远两端爱挂在天空飞
风停了也无所谓
只因为你曾说everthing will be ok

准备好了 three two one i'm always online
和你one two one爱开始扩散
我们连接了穿越天空银河

开始倒数 three two one渗出我的孤单
more and more既是深刻
爱亮了爱笑了i'm always online

变色的生活人性的挑拨疯狂的冒出了头
单方的守侯试探的温柔却还是少了点什么
遥远两端爱挂在天空飞
风停了也无所谓
只因为你曾说everthing will be ok

我准备好了 three two one i'm always online
和你one two one 爱开始扩散
我们连接了穿越天空银河

开始倒数 three two one 渗出我的孤单
more and more既是深刻
爱亮了爱笑了i'm always online

说好的幸福呢

2008-10-26T17:07:00.002+08:00

Current fave on my mp3... i heard it on radio933 first in the car.. and asked ben to send it to me.

说好的幸福呢 - 周杰伦

你的绘画凌乱着
在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽
甜蜜散乱了

情绪莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呐
伴你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了

时间过了走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了却了我哭了
一开始的不快乐
你用卡片拭写着
有些爱只给到这真的痛了

怎麽了
你累了
说好的幸福呐
我懂了
不说了
爱淡了
梦淹了
开心与不开心一一叙说着你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得

你不等了
说好的幸福呐
我错了
泪干了
放手了
后悔了
只是回忆的音乐和还旋转着
要怎么停呢

你的绘画凌乱着
在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽
甜蜜散乱了

情绪莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呐
伴你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了

时间过了走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了却了我哭了
一开始的不快乐
你用卡片拭写着
有些爱只给到这真的痛了

怎麽了
你累了
说好的幸福呐
我懂了
不说了
爱淡了
梦淹了
开心与不开心一一叙说着你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得

你不等了
说好的幸福呐
我错了
泪干了
放手了
后悔了
只是回忆的音乐和还旋转着
要怎么停呐

怎麽了
你累了
说好的幸福呐
我懂了
不说了
爱淡了
梦淹了我都还记得

你不等了
说好的幸福呐
我错了
泪干了
放手了
后悔了
只是回忆的音乐和还旋转着
要怎么停呐

2008-10-26T17:02:00.000+08:00

lei man ye dou kong ta cu
lei mo lam qei ta yan de gam shou meh

2008-10-23T22:29:00.003+08:00

dim gai arh? dim gai ngoh yat lam hei noh gou yan, ngoh jiu hwee ham. ham yao mant guai yong jie? ham tat gai sai lei, ta duo hmm fan mai ngoh de sang bing la. ngoh ho xiong fan hui yi qin, tong lei kong yat sang dui hmm qi. zhong yao, ngoh mo pin dou... lok nin le, ngoh ho kwa ju lei. dan hai lei, ngoh zi dou mo zhe kei hui zou. ngohh hei mong, zhong yao yat tin, lei hwee ji dou ngoh yao kei zhong yi lei. yu gou lei yao tai zhe fan xui hua de hua, bei ngoh yat qi kei hwee la. lok nin, ngoh mo lam kei tat yan, mo zhong yi kei tat lam yan, tian tian hei mong yao yat tin, lei ho yi tong ngoh kong, lei mo hmm kei tat wo, ho qi ngoh yat yueng, ho zhong yi dui fong. kei sah lei, ngoh ho xiong fong hei. ngoh ho qwee. ngoh hmm xiong tian tian xiong gou sou mui, dang lei, ham... ngoh zou hmm dou..

what the hell. dont bother trying to read or understand..

2008-10-08T00:40:00.002+08:00

"maybe by doing this will make you even more confused..."

wooahh, i like this!

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btw, i will watch F1 live next year! i wanna see massa felipe and fast cars!!!! (ferrari going gear 6 - CRAZY!)

i dont know why but i have something for fast cars! or is it the guy in that fast car? haha! in any case, i want my subaru trx; white with tinted windows? or black-still with tinted windows. i can do w/o the body kit but can i have the illegal white headlights too?? my god, seh like crazy. i wanna have a spin in that car!

我的男朋友 by elva

2008-10-05T00:56:00.002+08:00

我的男朋友 ☆☆☆萧亚轩1087☆☆
词:萧亚轩曲:倪子冈

我失眠无聊的夜里
常常会打给你
想聊更多更多更多
你morning call给赖床的我
天天这样默契好到不行

最近我们之间怎么改变
而我们一直是很好朋友
昨天你突然kissed me good-bye
不知道该怎么想
不知道该怎么想
怎么想怎么想

受不了一直不知道
oh我其实想你越来越多
要你当我的男朋友

受不了一直不知道
你对我有什么感觉
快告诉我

你喜欢送到家门口
在电影散场后
感觉更多更多更多
你有件事想要对我
说叫我别走
却又说不出口

最近我们之间怎么改变
而我们一直是很好朋友
昨天你突然kissed me good-bye
不知道该怎么想
不知道该怎么想
怎么想怎么想

受不了一直不知道
oh我其实想你越来越多
要你当我的男朋友

受不了一直不知道
你对我有什么感觉
快告诉我 oh yeh..

我其实想你越来越多
要你当我的男朋友
受不了一直不知道
你对我有什么感觉
快告诉我

Sad huh? but this is life

2008-09-15T14:05:00.003+08:00

it is not the same as before.

perhaps many things had happened in between which i dont know. starting to drift, did you realise it? Or maybe you didnt realise it. Wells, my friends always say, time will tell/proof everything. This is so true. This is life. I'm quite disappointed actually. SIAN.

even the lantern festival, only my house celebrated it and i was the only one walking in my neighbourhood, holding a small red lantern. It was just enough to lit up my path as i walked. Quite saddening huh? All the old traditions are gone because of stupid modernization and westernization -_- '''

And in less than 24 hours, i saw 2 road accidents. One of which happened just beside me and i was already shouting "too fast, way too fast!". I dont think anyone was seriously hurt for both cases, but it was sufficient to "wake" me up. Woman driver and young guy driver. Both are the worst drivers on the road. I agree. I'm not a good driver. My driving style is like "tail-gating".

虽然我愿意

2008-08-10T13:52:00.001+08:00

the first time i heard this song from radio 933, i fell in love with it

伍家辉 - 虽然我愿意

请让我靠近你轻轻对你说
别让我每个夜为你受折磨
是多么不容易才默默放手

为了我就当作这次为了我
别让我因为你被回忆折磨
而空气凝结了我们的脸孔
我别无选择

就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意

再让我靠近你轻轻对你说
当我说我要你从此好好过
是真的否则我怎么肯放手

为了我就当作这次为了我
赐给我你现在幸福的笑容
别让恨冻结了我们的脸孔
请你做选择

就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意

心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意
就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意
(心还想着你)

2008-07-12T15:44:00.002+08:00

you, dunno how disappointed i am, each time.

but also, i might not know how sad you might be at that time.

2008-07-08T14:42:00.002+08:00

3 big midterms in one week. I wanna faint already -_- i think will buang liao loh *choy*!

haha, in montreal, we were really bored in the hotel room. my friends and i started to "read" fortune and have some fun over "tarot" cards. those predictions were purely for fun, cant believe in them. but still, we had a good time playing it. in the end, we were so bo liao, we used probability and calculus and algorithm to calculate -_____- bu kui shi math/stats major de.

(anyway, i realised i have been speaking way too much mandarin and hongkong-accented english over here, it's quite scary to certain extent because we are all losing our own proper singaporean pronounciation. haha!)

haiz, next sem onwards, i cant think already....

Green tea

2008-07-07T10:17:00.002+08:00

And nope, this blog is not forsaken if you guys are wondering. Just that now I'm updating in the exchange blog, I will come back now and then during this period to "su ku".

Alot of things had happened and really, i wished i could cry in someone's arms or call geri/alice and whine/complain/gossip whole night long. But haha, too expensive to do that.

And i thought i wont miss home. Never tried being away from my family for such a long time before, confirm will miss them. But i like and enjoy the freedom here. However there are times when i just wanna get home at that instant.

Two times already. I dont call home because i chat with my family via webcam, with friends via MSN, but i called mama twice le. those 2 times i couldnt take it and just wanna talk to my mum. And need-less to say, tears just flowed down my cheeks (so primary sch compo) loh

i think and hope my mum didnt hear me crying/sobbing. haha

Everyone has been asking me to enjoy the exchange. I'm enjoying myself because I loved traveling and went to afew places already. But this exchange has its tears and "sorrows" too. It's so stressful that i feel like dropping all modules. Damn difficult leh, i think im just not good enough. No wonder they needed a cap requirement to go on sep. -________-

oh wells...enough of my rattling. im feeling better :)

anyway, i've been saying i missed poka green tea. And they found it in montreal chinatown. At night, they asked me to go to their room if i wanna drink. I din go because too tired and it was rather late. The next day, saw them in lobby, she asked me to come over to drink the poka green tea. I was like "hey i waaaannn..."

so i went over, and she just opened the bottle and drank in front of me, i went "hey i wannn" then she passed the bottle to him and he drank. And she said, "must let her see us drink..." I was like transparent to them. I dunno how to describe the feeling I felt at that time, i just walked away. Then we were going back, on the bus, he passed a new poka green tea bottle to me and said they bought a bottle for me. I rejected it even though I wanted it so much. They said they boguht it specially for me and asked me to take it, but still, i din take it. i just pushed his hand away. Then since i din wan it, another friend took it. As much as i want it, but no, i wont take it. I shall wait for another one month plus. i'm coming home soon....

byebye ling mama

2008-06-19T13:14:00.002+08:00

i'm really sorry to hear that...sorry i couldnt be there

life is short, but 人生 is indeed too fragile.

once your precious gems are gone, they are gone forever.
must must treasure all yr loved ones now...

st2132. WTF!

2008-05-31T12:14:00.002+08:00

haha (cold laugh)

results out. NOT GOOD! wth.

each sem, told myself i have to work harder and keep trying. results grades will be better by a bit each sem, but it is still not enough. and there will always be a module that will put every ounce of hard effort to waste.

i dunno why.

quite sad and dun think i can take it le. before and after coming for this exchange programe, really realise, there are alot of pple who never gotten even A- for the whole 2 years. not one but a handful of them who are here. and i am getting mostly all the B+Cs.

not complaining, not whining, but i am very amazed. i wanna pai them as gods already. how abt tutoring me? or tell me which module to take?

undescribable

and today dinner chat was bad. im trying to erase all the conversations.

know what, i wanna go home for a while.

2008-05-30T14:47:00.001+08:00

how?

results will be out at 6pm fri... which is 6am over at my place. OMG! that 3 modules are killing me. must pass must pass. just let me pass it, and everything will be in place....worked so hard for it le...

2008-05-15T11:31:00.002+08:00

yay because im finally in waterloo

not yay because
1) i am uber stressed up with the school work
2) i dislike time quizzes and i scored a bloody 76% for one
3)pple here are asking me to repeat things that i have just said. And one of the counter staff told my friend, "you have a weird accent, where are you from? ( but cant blame them )

im no happy because i have LOADS of school work to do and revise..

and noone seemed to wan to go down to toronto this weekend to buy stuffs. it's a long weekend. say so much in spore then now dun wan -_-

*LiVe LiFe tO tHe fUlLeSt*